DEVIL NEVER CRY

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2008-01-30T01:39:00.000+08:00

i am now in ..

www.melovemoon.blogspot.com

sorry for any inconvenience

2007-12-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

mahai..dulan of myself..now onli find out everyone is blogging..
the world is like 9 out of 10 people is blogging..me also conside as veteran in blogging..
but still no visitor and nuffnang give me shit coz not popular enough...

in case u guys dunno ...nuffnang is a group of ppl distribute advertisement to msia blogger so they earn money ..

yeah..in ur mind must be thinking..i never earn anything..even 0.01 sen...never get it..
every first blog is writing ..."i will responsible for my blog and make it interesting"
gila sial..the first point i start blogging is just act as my diary...and also godzilla (zhen cui) begging...

but now!!! everyone trying to gain popularity...
i kinda think they are naive..but i feel so tempted now...
with money and fame and lot of success people in blogging (kennysia,xiaxue,dawn)
i feel total failure ...mahai!!! anyone tell me how to make this blog alive???
i wan money!!!fame is second need~~~~ hehehehe
should i put more picture??if yes what???
i shud just put my sis naked photo..
narh~~~ i think scare ppl of more!!!
hehehehe
so how????
now go sleep first larh
next 2 day..fucking exam... after that onli think...

hey !! suddenly got an ideal
talk about HINDRAF...hhehehe..the indian finally stand upon all races other than msia to fight for benefit and more benefit!!! we will success and make this msia free of bad people...i never say who right???dun sue me..i no money..onli can sleep!!!!

silly post..no fuck larh k...

caring and faking

2007-10-31T23:54:00.000+08:00

sometimes its not feeling so good to being care.. i love the feeling of alone at certain time... it can happen randomly but recently it have become oftenly... i dun like voice ..shouting.. even touching..i prefer being a statue..doing what i like ..like the world only have me..

being care does not mean that they wan to care u always..sometimes it just ppl wan to take u as a subject to pass time, to cure boringness or just being guilty... i dun mind the reason is..and i dun angry of it..but i think caring is not onli express through talking to u often but through reality action to prove that u really are

example.. a friend calls u to see how are u day and night..i dun love it..i prefer u do something , calling me out for dinner and stuff like that..

a little bit of my hint will scare ppl offf..i hint them..and onli they realize "i made him angry , i have to do something" ...i totally not alright with it..if u care then please do it the moment u know i will be angry...dun do something u know what will happen ...dont do something that hurt someone if u know it will hurt them.. caring later..and apologies later will make me look down on u more...

so people..wake up... u are not moving on the right path

(yeap...another silly and not understandable post)

Conversation = No Conversation

2007-10-26T17:45:00.000+08:00

have a conversation with dad bout my com

Me : i think something wrong with my com..
Dad: its because of u playing too much till it get virus
Me : Its not a virus..it shut down automatic..i think is hardware prob
Dad: No..it must be virus..the technician says so
Me : the technician sux ok..worst repair skill ever and u think he is god..
i did play ur com like how i play mine ..nothing happen to urs too
Dad:nope..i got lot virus in my com too...after u playing it
Me : thats not virus..it just spyware!!not my fault
Dad: If its not a virus then why it auto off itself??
Me : i feel annoy talking to u..u keep saying its virus..how am i going to talk to u

*leave and walk up stair*

ppl in this society is really something...they see stuff in one colour..no matter what u do to them..it still think that they are right...

conversation really sux..even in family..lets dont imagine society...

Place Of Peace

2007-10-21T01:06:00.000+08:00

so long of not blogging feel a bit sad also..cant read back what had happen last few months.. recently have been like staying in my own world ..doing my own thing..thinking stuff onli for me..beside playing online game..i am still in online game..have start to quit smoking now.. for those ppl that shock..yeap..i am smoking for the past 2 year.. and now i think is time to say tak nak..costly and bad for health..yeah yeah..i heard it more than million in just 2 years..so i give it a try... never want to be a smoke slave anymore...but its hard..when u have frens that is always asking "want?" and my answer is always SURE!! .. -_-..hehe..a promise is promise..but it just take long..

i realize that i have a commom life style everyday..wake up in the afternnon ..class..home..dinner and game..lastly sleep...due to afternoon class timetable i been facing the com till 4 in the morning everyday..since i do not need to wake up early for class

eventhought is bad for health..but i found it not bad..i sleep all i wan..i do not need to face parents after i wake up(because i will bath and go for class after i wake) and inside my room for the rest of the night..beside dinner time.. i find peace..and understand a meaning of my zen place..(not u zc) the total silence make me feel dominating..and man love dominating..i love this sem seriously...i hope it wont last till this december..i hopes its forever..but due to it..i become a loner which dun feel lonely(will if my com spoil in sudden)...

anyway..got to watch tv dee..today will sleep at most early 4 ..heheh..

...

2007-09-03T22:56:00.001+08:00

Micro processor

2007-07-30T11:47:00.001+08:00

Processor programming... very hate it man!!dont understand a single thing..

Messy

2007-07-25T10:32:00.001+08:00

I wonder do i really love doing all this ?

Sweat

2007-06-29T10:13:00.001+08:00

My goodness..what the hell is all this!

Free and easy

2007-06-28T10:15:00.001+08:00

Finally i got a chance to relax and just shake my leg..

2007-06-26T23:31:00.000+08:00

a day with her, is a night that hope the time stop.. :P

Wanted

2007-06-26T10:46:00.001+08:00

Citizen please be aware of this person above..he is the worst crime maker that include rape and murder..run away when you see him! And i know the picture is not clear enough..but the place where he study and the name is stated..every be aware!

Hand

2007-06-25T14:20:00.001+08:00

Is hand enough for you to hold?enough to fight back?we dont know..but for me..a hand is barely enough to press on my heart..to relieve pain..i need more pairs of hands..i need yours..

CHS MINI GATHERING

2007-06-23T02:13:00.000+08:00

calling ex student of CHS!!!

a mini gathering is held on july ...

the purpose of the gathering is to once look at the memories

we got from high school years...

for any information please refer above!!

and sms or call people in charge in case u got any question!!!

see u guys there!!!

Devil

2007-06-22T23:16:00.001+08:00

Small little devil that never stop to cheer my day up..

Samson

2007-06-21T14:47:00.001+08:00

My killer..the special way to sit..when you see people sitting like this..its him for sure please revenge for meh?thanks..

Dead

2007-06-21T12:29:00.001+08:00

Totally dead off..thanks to samson..and his unique way of teaching..everybody please remember me so that i could rest in peace..goodbye cruel world!

you

2007-06-21T01:14:00.000+08:00

cant u see that i am sad???

cant u that i am very different??

cant u pay a little more attention to me?

i onli hope i could get optimum attention and caring

compare to what i did so much for u ...

all i need is just a day where i free from dissapointment..

i am not asking for a day to laugh my lung out..

but a night to let me sleep well and rest well with a smile u put it on..

dun ditch me away ..i am not ur doll..i am not for task

dun tell me u dun treat me that way..

because ur action show me another..

if u take me like how u take me now

and think that it suit me perfectly..

please...think twice..i am same as u ..

i need more than what u think..........

Great Teacher

2007-06-11T18:52:00.000+08:00

..lecturer in college are different than high school teacher..in attidude and also the way of teaching..college lecturer attidude is more to a side where their teaching will train a student to face the upcoming society work life..and of coz it is much tougher..today i will introduce a lecture in my life that really thought my something that no mvalue can describe..

the class start at 2 pm every monday..since the teacher is humble enough..just name him "uncle G"for some sort of respect..today class is called microprocessor that is very hard to master..so please honour lecturer below ...

the picture above the time take for me to reach class and also the time the lecturer start the class.. u might think that above is the lecture time while my time is below and u predict i am late..no!! u are god damn wrong..it is the opposite..the lecturer is late!! maybe it just traffic jam lorh..u knwo larh ..city life..

thats him...start teaching at exactly 2 30 pm...(i do not have photoshop thats why i not good in sensoring..and also sorry for the frame..i do not know why my phone cant zoom in normal mode..but it does when in frame mood)

above was the time our uncle G ..go out and have a talk ...maybe some student cum fans is invading the college to get UNcle G signature..so security have to contact him...this is my assumption onli..

later on..after the 10 minutes talk with the guard..the fans might settle down and everything turn alright..i know in ur mind u might predict a lot of watch picture will be out..so to cut thing short..i do this...

first picture : he called us to read some notes given by him ...

second picture: the time he continue teaching after we student read his note..while he doing this>>

dreaming....

third picture of watch shown the time he give us a break ...and the last picture shows the end of break ...later on ...

can u get the point..he is such an honour lecturer that he think that 2 hours of class is too much for us and for him..

the total time he teach us are onli 40 minutes!!!!! 2 hours class become 40 minutes class.!!!

this achievement and confident surpass all the great teacher i tell u man..

and he totally pawn us before the class end : "CLASS CANCEL TOMORO BECAUSE I AM ON LEAVE"

we are stun..because tomoro class is 4 hours class..

malaysian lecture is getting more and more...EFFICIENCY!!!(is this how it suppose to spell???)

update:

i forget to sensor the other 2 pictures of him...arh who care ..like he will read my blog..

life

2007-06-11T01:48:00.001+08:00

have u ever thought what is right and wrong real meaning???

are u open minded enough to accept something that is new which everyone disagree??

are u courageous enough to step forward to prove to others that something new works??

are u tough enough to accpet failure and rejection from dearest when something goes wrong??

life is so tough when resistance live inside us..something that stop a normal individual doing something out of ordinary..somethng that slow our dream ..something that oppose our dream..everyone must have more force to overcome resistance which we name it courage..

living a life too ordinary are really a bit too ordinary for everyone..everyone wanted to reach a dream..but one point..will they be onli limited dream in ur life??are u sure dream wont born another dream??if u cant reach all ur dream..will u back to ordinary??

just an example..u satisfied with ur car now??if no..what happen a few years after u changed ur car now??u satisfied with ur new car after so many new model is out??will u wanted to change it again??are u sure u not going to cycle??are u back being ordinary after ur dream car now become ur an outdated car in future???

life is so tough..no matter what u do ..what u think ..eventually it onli bring trouble to urself..living a life is like swimming in the middle of the sea..u dunno where to head..or worst..not even a path happen to be therel...lets take dream as island..will the island be enough??u sure u wont jump down and swim to reach for another island??

everyone is hoping to reach land..we know we can reach land from swimming..but are we capable of doing that with limited and minimal strength and stamina??if u happen to reach the land..are u not exhausted with ur hardwork??will that be nice ??are that all u want???

too much question and answer onli lead to more question..i am not saying bout life become better with no dream ...but is that needed??will that be worthy??is losing less that what u gain??is gain more than what u losing??is something that is loss not important??

hmmm..life...never ever become a better thing..

phew

2007-05-25T14:02:00.001+08:00

guys and girl..is already so damn long since i last blog..sorry larh ..the assignment test and also final exam..add on holiday..and i just back from bangkok, thailand..hahah..everything is great..and i started my sem 4 ..

recently nothing much really emotic happen so no emo post will be written for here(i will change for the sake of tsae yun that keep on saying my blog is too emo) ...actually i also dunno today wan to write what ...i just feel my blog is too damn long post ago..oh yeah ..about the CHAPTER ONE post..pleasse take it as a story ok ..character inside do not exist..if they exist..i hope is me as well..because it will be damn wonderful..haha..i just suddently feel like writing some story to see whether i got talent in that..hahhaa..but seem like my determation do not last..maybe there will be chapter 2 ..if suddenly i got the adrenaline rush ..mukakak...

yong saying that my blog too less picture..well my com really got very less pictures..thats why i hardly have antyhing to upload..but i will work hard in it..hahha

then the first picture will be my appearance different..kekeke..i straighten my hair..and i look so much better..and the cost for it so darn cheap..chiu i wonder why i never go straighten it long ago..then i wont having problem with my darn curly hair..ok give u guys see some diff

see any difference..people tend to tell me that if i straighten my hair i will look more girlish but i onli think i getting more better look..dunno in which aspect but i start to love taking picture more now..compare to curly piece of hair ..hahhaa

today is just stupid post..will upload more picture..especailly my trip to bangkok,thailang..bye!

2007-04-17T22:35:00.000+08:00

CHAPTER ONE…

Once a upon a time..there were this guy that is happily enjoying time with his new fren,new classmate..chit chatting about everything they been through because since it is new..everyone do not know each other so well..but beyond the sight of all this fren, the guy saw a gurl, standing beside a window that is double the height of her..she is wearing a pink jacket with blue jeans mini skirt..looking sad yet attractive..especially her silky hair tied up.. This guy is not any brave guy..but in sudden..he take the inisiative to walk up to the gurl..their both first conversation start from the guy.that was a very simple “hello” ..both of them have an unexpected conversation and both also gotten a very close..but it onli last for that moment..when the semester of the subjects..both gone to diff path of road..since the guy is from a engineering class and the gurl is a business student..they somehow taken a subject and the onli subject that is needed for both student..but after that..it is impossible to meet up..but fate play the game.. During the holiday..Maybe the guy inisiative does pay off..the gurl give a single message that is able to brighten the guy boring day..since his parents and family is off for vacation..when the message came..the excited guy cant even concentrate on his favourite online game at the cyber café..he is thinking how to let this conversation become longer..and become more interesting.he do not wanted the girl slip off just like that.. by that time I felt that moment ,……..

SHE CONQUERS ME……

support

2007-04-15T00:31:00.000+08:00

some times it is not that i wan to lose to fate..but i cant fight with something i cant be able to hold..fate is something that change so fast that it happen just like that..but my fate is a bit special..beside going real fast..it actually repeat it too.. but no matter how i try to learn how fate goes..i just cant grap it at all..

i been having the experience over and over again..this feeling is really torturing and everytime it happen ..i will not be able to bare it and i will die once..it is true..my feeling and emotion will die just like that..i feel that i am not controling anyone,any situation and anytime..instead i am being control..deeply.. it makes me do not have to right to make any decision and choices..i do not have the power to control how people look at me..and also lack the ability to save myself..

asking what i need???i need to be myself..a cheerful,happy and confident..i wan a chance to control and to manipulate..to gain archievement..dignity and also my pride of being ...me..just me..asking what i need to change?? lifestyle..not being a nobody..but being somebody and is ONEbody..asking what i do not wish to have??negative emotion..jealousy..greediness and also vengence and hatred..emotion block my dream and create obstacle to who i really wan to be..

and lastly ..support from everyone..but it will be hardest thing to ever get..i wish i do have support...

2007-04-11T14:08:00.000+08:00

sometimes human are really realistic especially when grown up..once we got mature we are supposingly start to think wider..the thing around u..event going on..and the most important ppl around u ..this is how i trust thats the way of how a human grow ..but reality do not happen that way ..when we grow older..we start to think all for ourself..and onli yourself..there is not anymore hero story ppl sacrificing themself for the sake for others..all this is bull shit now anymore..even now u go outside telling people that ur dear is in danger and u would sacrifice urself for him or her..people will say u are dumb ..saying u are imature and laugh at u ..but actually they shud say "yeah i will support u ,that is how u think for others.." i am not saying sacrifice mean die for others..it mean sacrifice time and energy for others..come to think of it..can u live alone??can u work out alone??if u just sacrifice time for others..ppl will sacrifice time for u too..then thing will be much easier in passing ur suffer life time..

being selfish is something that i will never agree for my lifetime..i do not take ppl for granted and i did my very best for them..of coz it do not mean u go and sacrifice for every stranger u ever met..but at least for someone that acknowledge u or u had acknowledge them..if u take them as someone in ur life.then dun take them as a toy..trying to ease ur boredem or as ur helping hand onli..it is so evil come to think of it..live for urself in a pure way and live with others is the onli right way to live..

not trying to pastor..dunno why feel like fucking everyone that oppose me..

dilemma

2007-04-04T20:13:00.000+08:00

thng have been gone kind a struggle.i start to wonder what i really wan to have in my life and also what i wan to do as well..nowadays a lot incident kinda giving me a hint that my life should not be that way..i once thought that i am somebody that know what i am doing..but now..i do not have the confidence anymore to be sure for others and be sure for myself..

every action i did..every feeling i feel..am i the one that feeling i truly feel or maybe i am just being covered by ego and being covered by my arrogance..i wont be happy of what i did..it might be some action i wan to throw to others to make sure i am bein respected..but gaining respected in the other way destroy ur own life is something i dun think it as worthy action but still i will do it..i do not know why ..maybe i am blind in my heart..blind with greed,arrogance,anger and also vengence..

i want my life to back how it was..i really miss it very much..i do not like myself now that is always full with question marks and wondering..time by time..i know that i one day i could not stand it anymore..and i am confirm i will be regret if this kind of problem do not stop..

i hope i could save myself...

2007-03-30T19:35:00.000+08:00

haih..,so long no blog dee...this blog is so dead when i look at it..hmm..what shud i say here??? I HATE RICH FREAKS..not saying all rich ppl is bad..but majority does not give me a very good impression..i have fren that rich that think they can mainpulate all his fren..i also have rich freak that does not care about their future any longer because they got tons of money...ppl like that talks and act like they no longer needed to work hard..maybe play hard is their job of lifetime..i do not like them..ppl like them make the world very unfair..and i am onli refering to those spoilt brat that have milionaire parents..

it so unfair for those that work so hard in the beginning in study but end up have to work even harder after college/university or anything compare to a brat that play while study and fail eveything but end up with a big company..i know it is fate of how everyone live..and i accepted it long ago..it just recently i am too exposed to situation that MY LIFE GO UPSIDE DOWN BECAUSE RICH FREAKS!!..that is why i wan to complain so much right now..i hate this cycle..i onli hope universe got this law that limit every brat got a onli a few amount of money ..so they will worry and shake their ass till they pee..and my life will so much easier because i do not wan my life to be that hard..

haih..what i wish is something so logic..but i will work hard..i will one day be as rich as them,...no i mean richer than them 100 over time..so when once i look at them in future..i will tell them "ur money is ur mommy give..mine money i take from myself..and ur mommy money gonna be mine soon ,brat" and spit to them right on the nose..wow!!!if that happen..kanina..i also dunno what will happen..

but my future is set..i will be a rich man!!!

Test

2007-03-28T11:19:00.001+08:00

I am so stress by facing book like this everyday..only numbers and alphabet!

piss

2007-03-21T14:45:00.000+08:00

2007-03-07T22:40:00.000+08:00

haih...finally i feel like blogging...no longer take it anymore..this few months it been hectic for me..my brain is the biggest victim among all..what i am angry about...something commom..college assignment..this semester is really the toughest job for me after studying for so damn long..the assignment and report is so much that i cant recall it until my friend remind me about it..it is totally destructing my life right now..so uncommom for me to think so much in a few days...what is the worst part when u have fren that is so free that keep persuade u to go here and there wasting money and also time..and also the energy and effort to do a good assignment and report..due date is coming and i not even start from a scratch...

u know..this world can be really stupid at time..i got this lecturer that is really weird..she got fucked by management because she fail lots of people in a certain subject..i cant say the management is right ..i do thing they are wrong as well..but the main point i want to talk about is not this..the main point is this lecturer actually try to use teaching and also exam eluavation to revenge back to the management for those bad treat she got..she come to class late,teach those easy stuff,lot of break, and giving a sudden test to student..between both party..they are not suffering ..the worst is for student that paying money to get education but stuck up between two idiot..we learn nothing and the feeling of being the middle man is so stupid..it make us worth nothing..deng..i hope they both just die coz eat tauhu..

actually today just tulan of lotz thing..but my mood to blog end here..

tata

piss

2007-02-12T10:45:00.000+08:00

this is going to be short pose since i am rushing to class in 20 mins time..i blog because i worry what i suppose to say later on...today i met a teacher who been degraded by a dean from a faculty in my college..and also blacklisted as well..i think she is kinda bad luck and also i pity her since all the while she is trying to maintain standard and also do her best just to make sure her fellow student able to pass their exam and go for a better university ..eventhought her way of teaching is harsh and not in a pleasent way..but we student know that she do the best for us...

just because of some lazy freak that fail her subject and force to retake uncountable times..and they never thought of their wrong but complain to the dean ..this people totally piece of shit if u ask me ..and the dean is also an ass..he agree with student and ask the teacher to pass them even they pass up a piece of blank paper..and because of those bastard we as a pass student's cert will not be recognized by good University since the standard is low..man..it sux..and i think i cant debate much since i cant voice out any words..but i got to find a university that is good and also able to accept my cert..i just dulan the dean for being such idiot..u run a college..a place to help student..not a place to gain fame with cheat bastard...go fuck yourself!!

p/s yee ming and charlene shud be in australia now..i wish them good luck and not being fuck by kangarooo...kakkakak...see u guys in a year time..gonna miss all who going australia this month..

dream

2007-02-07T07:56:00.000+08:00

damn piss now already ..u got no wrong..zhien wei or aaron wake up 8am in the morning???it is something i hardly understand also ..it is all because of this stupid nightmare..i already not sleeping so early yesterday and now i got frighten by a dream that woke me up 4.59 this morning..blady fool..end up i roll up my bed till i cant stand rolling and decided to blog about it instead(am i weird or weird??) ..nowadays dream seem like to become a big piece of puzzle in my life ...instead of last time i do not have dream so often..the feeling really sux once u wake up from a nice sleep because of some nightmare..it make u depress and emo for the first few hours..ish ish ish..i still got engineering maths 2 test later on..bummer!!! i got to go study liow..may all the dream fled off from my mine at this moment right now(it is ok with sweet dream..but nightmare???no way dude!!!)

2007-02-05T22:56:00.000+08:00

farewell

2007-02-05T21:05:00.000+08:00

wow..finally i am able to sit down relaxing myself and go a little blogging..this month, february 2007 is already becoming every pre-u graduate students and also friends to leave their home,msia and to other country to pursue their study..well here i am to wish them good luck and also may god bless them all..

we got a little farewell party which end up freaking lot of ppl..i thought i call a few but total of over 20 ppl attend the gathering ...below is the detail..IN POINT FORM ..HAH!

place ---- da' haven ,bangsar
time --- actually meet at eight..but when u convert to malaysian time..u always get an hour later..
place to mee before--macdonald..zhen house..hartamas..midvalley..blah blah blah..end up in zhen house also..
people who attend---a lot...

let see ..people who is leaving is ...yee ming(beast), charlene(yee shuang),braden,kar mun, chong yaw(mandolph) and also yee kee..for yee kee..as i am blogging right now..he is in the airport ta fei keing..so everyone wish him luck and when u see him..call him to stop masturbating because it will kills..

first of all..let us go with beast..i know him since i am just form 1 ..there is a certain case(dun ask me what) that make me a potential person to gossip at ..and he is one hell of a beast that talk bad and make fun of me in a very open way eventhough i dunno him at all..so the first impression..really bad!!! soon i found out that he actually is also one of 9th peejay scout( i have to say this..CHS scout rulez!!) and that is when i go oh no!!!..at near end of year..scout campfire is a blast that time..and i got to know him more when u are cleaning to school compund after campfire..so what do i think of him that time??even worst!! hah..and then soon both of us form 2..that is when everything started i guess..due to lotz of meeting in scout meeting..we end up become like buddy..and i have to admit that i do learn bad stuff from..u are really my sifu dude...haha..actually form 2 is not close enough..i think we got pretty close during form 3..forgotten how..but during form 4 when we are classmate..that is when hell break lose because both of us like a demon for fellow teacher..i dun wan to say until so gay..so i wont elaborate much anymore..all i wan to say ..he is quite a buddy and losing this beast in msia u will really feel the world is actually too quiet..anyhow..i pray for his safe path and may god bless him...

this is the beast on the left..if the world is sad during 911 then cheer urself that 211 that the msia gain world peace...!!!(11 february 07 is beast departure to destroy australia)

next is about charlene,yee shuang..she is kinda same case with beast..we know each other through anger and also vengence hahah..u wan to know what??u ask her larh since she is complaining how big mouth i am to tell every single person..is it boring to read my blog liek that??hahah..then too bad larh..my blog is meant to be mysterious anyway..muakakka..stop the crap and back to charlene..know her in form 2 and got better relation in form 3 and during form 4 ,same class also ..that is how our frenship is the best..she is the onli girl that i could be able to tell her my story and expect for understanding unlike others who just shit in consulting people..and also she is the one i will think of when i am feel like breaking down and when i just wanna relax..i never thought me and her could be that close..but i really wan to thank her for lot of stuff..i think if without her during high school period..i will die of depressing(now i sound so sissy...) well charlene...,i wish for ur safe path also ..and i know ur first love will be in msia..trust me ..long distance relation works..dun hear others..they just dun dare to try..they are coward ok..put ur confidence in it..may god bless you too..!!

charlene on the right..i wonder this picture will make ur bf mad or not???kakak :P

as for yee kee..hhaa..he is a tough guy at the outside..actually me and him honestly can consider is just good fren onli..because we never get very close..just sometimes will talk about very emo thingy..so deep inside his heart..he is actually very playful too..someone that is very good in photoshop..i knew it when we are designing our class page..and it turn up really GOOD!!kakaka..well he is interested in design anyway..so good luck for u too..thats all i could say to u ..good luck man..dun ta fei kei in airport or in airplane ...

the most left..i found out i do not have a picture of me and him onli..sorry yee kee!!!

next is my pathetic so call wife( i am straight ..it just a nick i give to him ok) ..this guy give me no good impression at the first look(why do i hate ppl so much in first look and end up being so frenlyu with them??) ...well that time i know we are both going to the same girl and we always dislike each other kakka...but when the girl turn both of us off(so sad..sob sob) we become buddy instead!! half year of sitting beside this dude is cool..really cool..talk crap..talk shit ..talk dick..talk boob..u said it all..hahah...dude..dun be like a kayu most of the time larh ..;take ur confidence and enjoy life ok ..make ur life colourfull..u are the man !!!

mandolph or wife..

the happy family..from left--daughter zenny..wife mandolp..leng chai husband and dad,,

as for braden and kar mun..honestly we are not very close..so dun blame me for not writing much ..dun worry u both will still remain in my heart..u guys rock ok..maybe i just write a little bah..braden..a gentlemen..i remember during countdown in cititel..he help a few girls to finish a few cups of pure chivas(no adding water) and just doze off and having terrible headache.,.kkakka..and also a cool guy driving civic..envious man..i wonder how u lose to my old car..kakak..just kididng...about kar mun ..i know she got a very high frekuensi voice which take lot of ppl attention when she speak(it is very hard to stand when she yell..kaka) but still a nice girl to hang out and have fun..with ur bf 3 years dee word..when it reach 5th u gotta marry already hahha..ok larh ..i wish both of u all happy always muakakaa..

thats all for now..about that night in bangsar is really cool..will wait for u guys back

p/s ..such a long post..first record...

p/s...wan to see picture for that bangsar night??wait for the next post..

GUY'S PMS

2007-01-30T20:00:00.000+08:00

once a while do u ever feel u are extremely down for no particular reason..feel like throwing of urself to a deserted island or throwing everyone of ur island?? then u will got a little unsociable attidude come out from u ?? feeling angry for very tiny miny things?? and when the time u got really boring u will start thinking negatively ..and feel like the world owe u too much and u cant think of any reason to survive anymore.. well i do dare to admit that recently i do have this feeling..and the feeling is totally sux..

but right now..this morning when i just woke up..i feel much better ..like a brand new day ...like everything that u been thinking recently is just rubbish..and now..in front of the com i am thinking why human is like that( dun tell me all the crap that u dun like ..i bet my life that u once in lifetime u will be like that ~~~kaka) ..we can be so weak a seconds ago and the next second we feel so spirit that we can finish up the whole KFC brand new fish burger and telling urself how lucky u are to be in this world~~

let leave the girl aside..because to make thins simple ..we can just assume they PMS since sience prove there will be big diff of girl with PMS and no PMS..

how bout guys???i dun think we got this PMS thing..all we got will be onli another PMS which stand for "poor man suffering" when ur girlfren of wife got PMS..u get it..???understand marh???

well..i did ask some of my guy fren(chill man~~i no gay) did they ever been through or is it onli me??99% of them got and 1% say no..which i dun really trust him since he just being bossy and trying to get attention..kaka..

the reason got mostly from them is when they were too boring so they spend their lifeless time thinking bout all this stuff...and some ppl say they feel the pressure and stress from all the study and working blah blah blah..nothing to conclude in this lame post..i just wan to know is there anyway to cure this kinda disease because it really sux~~

dun mind this lame post..i am just boring waiting for my dinner...but if u dun mind...just give me a little suggestion of what happenning muyakakkkakka

REVOLUTION

2007-01-28T10:09:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night after receving call from yue ying ..take my car key and blast to magical theatre restaurant which is just in front of piramid..actually we are not SUPPOSE to be there because i am just wearing a t shirt and a short pants..and patrick onli call us to go for mamak store..when i pick up yue ying ..this is the conversation

yue ying : hi
me : yo, so now we going where??
yue ying : Let's go look for selyn working place to drink??
me : u know where??
yue ying : i dun know..but just now she call us to look for her..but it is somewhere near piramid..
me : oh ok, give her a call and ask where is the specific place then..

*yue ying call selyn and ask where the place but yue ying is so stupid that she still dunno where the place is after selyn explain so many time...stupid me for not asking yue ying to pass me the phone..end up we follow the direction given by yue ying then TADAH ..we reach .. MAGICAL THEATRE ...

yue ying : this is the place??
me : u wan me to go in this place with my attire now???why dun u tell me is MTR just now???
yue ying : i do call u guys to wear nicer because selyn say dun embarass her...
me & patrick : u did not!!!
yue ying : sorry i forgot!!!

*that is typical yue ying we always know and dumb as well...cant blame her..she is born with an EQ lower than zero...

the girl at ur right...EQ negative!!!

back to the magical thingy..so we got in and selyn shock!!

selyn : why so cincai??

me : thanks to her...*pointing at yue ying*

selyn : oh ..i understand kekeke..

this place is always i wanted to come..not desperate wan to come larh..just wan to try their food and hear some song and also see some magic..tht time it is really late so magician is not around so we have a couple of beer and few chit chatting ..

selyn talk to us as well..and patrick spot one of the waitress and wanted to know her so he seek for selyn help ..kekkee..and the amazing thing we got from selyn is all the waitress is onli 15!! and the manager is onli 17!!! and they can do wonderfull result for SPM and PMR..what a bummer..then patrick spotted wan is just 15..so he say dun wan ..since it is ilegal to do anything to anygirl below 16 !! hahaha...

i wonder one thing..how can they be so smart for them..for me studying is already very hard and my result is like shit while they got superb result even working from 7pm - 1 am ..impress!!

nowadays i feel that new generation kinda different from us..smarted ..more active and lots more..it is like they are the new version of human kind..oh my god!!! we are the old freaks..blame those new formula milk when they are still baby...

what is going to happen in future???all smart human turn to alien ..???

even the baby nowadays is more than just a silent baby..they are CRAZY

RK HOUSE DUN SELL PORK

2007-01-27T14:12:00.000+08:00

This is freaking funny!!!!

REVOLVING CIRCLE..SOMETHING THAT I CANNOT BREAK....

2007-01-27T12:46:00.000+08:00

actually all this been a while..i do not expect people to know what i am thinking..even it bring lot of difficulties for me..i do not have companion to tell out what deep down in my heart has been store..and of coz increase the pressure and also emotional time where i feel like breaking down..

recently i start to feel that people intend to be selfish..and in another way around i feel being drag down by their selfishness and create more mentally trouble for me..but in order to keep my smile and cheerfulness..all this crap i will just pull it harder to bottom of my heart and lock it up..just the thing is i dunno when is time that my "store room" going to be fully occupied..even if it really burst out one day ..i guess i will be alone that time too..

my life is just a destiny followed ..i got parents that i really afraid of..with a responsible parents and also knowledgable sister and being the youngest member in this family..i got to follow the fate that is given..that make my disaster repeat and repeat withought limitation..it is not that i wan to ignore what they ready for me..it just that what they did is not wrong..but it just not my way..not the fate i want..not the destiny i hope for..

lets talk about fren now..all the while ...i got a major changing of close fren..i really get a little tired out..i mean all i wan is one and onli one to go through my hardship all the while..someone that i can trust..someone that i cannot lose..but still it is still unfortunate for me now..i used to be someone that always cheer ppl up..but deep down i really hope somebody will do that to me as well..make me look like a small kid and also shoulder to cry on..acting like a baby..ppl tend to say i am veru big ego...i guess lack of love make me become what i am now..stand strong for ppl and also myself..but is still something i wan ..i dun wan to be look high..i wan to be normal and pure individual..

if there is a chance i can be reborn i hope to change totally to another person..i mean being rebellion..daring to do something i like and also make my own world ..at this time changing is really too late to do it ...for me at least..i try and try and try..but it wont happen and i know it wil not for future..with my fate and also destiny holding and settle everything for me ...

u know..it really nice to blog at this time since no one starting to take care of my blog..so nobody will be able to read...even if they do ..u might get offended ..dun mean to offended anybody..i might be refering to anyone here..just dun do the perasan..if u really care me as a fren or a family please respect my think,blog and my action..for stranger..this is not a good blog for u serve through..if it happen this link is in ur favourite ..then delete it out..it dun mean that much for the blog to stay ...

no matter what i said..i dun mean to take my life as a low life and sad life..i just have to fix myself to cope with how it is..at least the world still remain an positive mind thinking for me ..to let me got desire to live on..i do not know what will happen in future..it will change or not..but i do get a few percentage of how it might be..but not all..so i dun need advice like life will be better..i am still a positive asshole k(i repeated twice)..

ok larh ..i guess thats all for today..my heart and eye are bigger now..to be able to see thing clearly and i finally got to taste the feeling of darkness that erupt all over me..but i believe there is still light within darkness..it just see i can be able to reach or not..if it do..i will cherish who i am more..but if i dun ...i will wish a good luck for myself..conclusion.....................i just wan to be a better man and average as well......

2007-01-22T23:20:00.000+08:00

wow..its been so long since i updated my blog..nvm larh..nobody read it anyway..hmmm..it still january right???so i will talk about this year a bit larh ..hmm..just a few weeks after 2006 ..i can feel the changes that happening..lifestyly and way of thinking..i do not know is good or bad..but i think is so no good!!!

oh my god..another year of like that really cannot stand at all...add on somemore got so many hard subject..i really hope to graduate early..i feel like i am in some kind of jail..un able to accomplish any single thing..and bring trouble to myself ..i feel kinda moody..i feel i am too average too accomplish what i really wan... it is just impossible to me but my desire to accomplish make me feel useless and dissapointed..all i wan is to be simple and reach peaceful..how can the world give me a harsh situation???where do i need to locate myself and where shud i place myself...

i heard ppl saying that everyone in this world is a small missing puzzle..everyone got their function and dedicated their life to search for the right place for them...wow..but all the time i really wonder am i the extra piece ..or am i the piece that i not needed..i find find find and find...i really do..but the place dun exist for me at every single place..hmmmm...i really do not wan to believe i am actually that unfortunate..i am just too average to be challenge...

2006-12-28T01:09:00.000+08:00

well well well...here i am again...heard some earth quake happening in taiwan and make the connection down..dun have the mood to check frenster..dun have the mood to chat because i cant receive some message and ppl cant receive mine either..end up the onli site happening is blog..maybe fate wan me to blog hahaha

well christmas is over..i cant say it is total fun ..but well at least i celebrate..and that make me feel better..not all the year i celebrate alone..but mostly do..i used to stay at home and countdown with my family..but recently years ..i got to go out and crazy with some fren..last year is really a mess hahah..i still remember i being corn by them and end up being the soap of the night..

this year ???ummm..went to the curve..eat japanese restaurant call toh san...some nice some good..and hang out with million of ppl being like a hotdog in the middle of two bread most of the time..the feeling???i just feel like going home..i thought of my mom and my dad..what are they doing??and then i got a call from them..it is bad news because i got scolded reall bad since i drove my mother car beloved car due to my clumsy sis that spoil my car..i found out my mom is alone,..watching tv..dad and sis not around..i hope to go home so much ..to be by her side..but well..i cant leave someone alone in the curve..heheh..

for me malaysian countdown for christmas is not happening..actually i think all countdown is boring ..dunno why..i just dun love countdown..i onli feel being squeeze all the moment..and everyone sharing sweat and touching here touching there...hehehe...sound erotic??u think urself haha..

after everything done..gone home and meet mom..she give me a angry look but end up i am able to make a smile on her face...i got relieved..sis and dad is drunk ..so never wish them at all since i am busy leading them to their bed..hahhha

i know this is the boring post..i dun feel like blogging ..i am just boring right now..and also blur..
i watch two movie straight today ..at 2 diff places..hahhaaa..so understand me larh

p/s : i know my post i really lack of picture and all boring word that no climax and no plan order..but well i am not looking good in photo..and i dun write well.. and i dun blog for popularity..i just blog to express something to myself..OMG..what am i talkign..go sleep first tata..!!

end of year!!

2006-12-24T16:12:00.000+08:00

wow..it been so long since i last updated my blog..hahah..sorry everyone...as u can see the clock above..i got my final to take care and it is finally done!!!!and now i am here with a two weeks holiday(even it is short..but it is just enough) and also today we is a christmas eve..

everytime when it is christmas i will think back of what i have done for this year and what do i want to archive for the next year..some years it is good and some is just disaster..as for 2006 is quite okok lorh ..some go unplan..some go smooth according to plan..and some just a major surprise..

thats me in 2006...

just a few more days i will tell uncle auntie that i am 19 ...i am in college year 2 and no more high school major exam..sharing my life to some cousin who is out of high school and blah blah blah..conclusion i am getting the old brother feeling or just old...

well got good go bad..at least i experience something..i learn lot for this 2006 compare to previous years..i gain pain that make me feel the end of the world and also hapiness that make me love myself so much that..which make me become a new aaron saying bye to the old zhien wei..

oh my god..this is getting so emotional and so sad..let stop talking about the old year..lets see what we got for 2007..for my friends that still got contact with me..i am doing diploma and i got a year more to go and i am not flying everywhere until 2008..thats not the main point..the main point is 2007 lots of buddy that is doing pre-u is having their new life and situation at outside uni..i am happy for them that they will have a experience gain that could lead them so much..and i feel sad because i will stick to my dull lifestyle because alone in msian and without them..i bet 2007 wont be any surprise..so everyone please miss me..i dun mind even it just a 0.000001 second..i will really appreciatte that hahaha...

ok larh ..i guess i said too much boring stuff..i know the fun part might be me revealing more about myself..but i cant as i am not those that can tell everyone in public bout my private..hehhe...anyhow..meery christmas and happy new year to fellow world..may 2007 be a good year..and wish me luck ok !!!!!

before leaving ..let me sing a song k???

hohhoho....jingle pau !!jingle pau!! jingle cha siu pau!!!lin yong pau ...tau sa pau....siew mai,loh mai kai!!...MERRY CHRISTMAS HOHHOHHO

(i know it is cacated...but just had dim sum just now :P and thanks caselyn for the wonderful lyric!!!)

i need more presentssss!!!!!

piss

2006-11-29T08:46:00.000+08:00

today right now on the very morning i am so piss of my sisters...man !!! when something happen i am always the one that got to be blame..for everything..saying me this and that without realizing i am the innocent wan !!!and the trouble they are in is their own problem they produce..this is what happen

around 8 something..when i just reach home after karaoke with college fren and i am so hectic after finishing all assignment last two night and never sleep well..when reach home..sis quarrel with my mom ..as usual..even not my mom wrong ..i dunno what she trying to protect..for me it just kind of childishness in both of them ..mom and sis..trying to be the winner ..and take a family quarrel as a game..frankly speaking, i dun understand why must we quarrel ..is that a meaning of a family??is that something we have to cross over??i can accpet if it is a very big sort problem..but if u argue just to argue..then that is really stupid..at least i think so ...but due to my hectic weak body..i drop dead on my bed ..

around 11 something(sis already outing after quarrel with mom) ..my sis called and said she will be back late and mom dun let her in later on ..so she call me to be awake till she back then while i am still in sleeping mood..after that call my phone battery is empty and i charge it..my phone while in charging ..it wont vibrate and wont give a tone and onli a beep..how u going to expect someone so hectic to be awake with just a beep..and here it goes with 14 miss call from my ass sis..

the next day ..mom finally let her in .i dunno where she went..but i dun need to worry about that..she used to it..the moment i wake up..she been scolding me telling me why i sleep till cant open the door..well if she talk to me nicely..i might give sorry..but heck..he talk like my mom..and unable to understand who wrong at the first part..she should not quarrel with mom..she should go out till so fucking late..and she should realize i am damn freaking tired..why dun she scold my mom??why dun she threw a pillow on her telling her she is a bitch?? i wonder why am i being blame..i am just a small character in this very small matter..and now i got the bad stuff all around me before sleep and after sleep!! i really wanna yell this WHAT THE FUCK!!!!

u know..people tend to dun understand others and never realize their wrong..just like my mom and sis..and ppl dun tend to blame someone above them ...like my sis not scolding my mom..and ppl also love to bully someone without a limit..just like my mom ..just because she in inhappy how my sister quarrel with her..she dun let her in the house onli a reason to make herself happy ignoring my sister safety...

thats all for today ..i just freaking piss now..so i am going to blog a little bout what happening

DEATH NOTE

2006-11-13T16:47:00.000+08:00

today gonna do some review on thing that is interesting..

this post is for those that dun read anime manga(comic) or anime itself..

i am introducin this because everyone seem to so stress at the end of the year for their exam and period haahaha...well proud to present..the hottest manga of the year

DEATH NOTE

here is some of the sipnosis of it

WHAT IS DEATH NOTE

Death Note is a highly popular Japanese Manga series written by Tsugumi Ohba and illustrated by Takeshi Obata. Death Note revolves around the main character Light Yamgami. Light is Japan's Top High School student who has led a boring and uneventful life. That of course changes once Light finds a mysterious notebook entitled, "Death Note". In the beginning Light is of course skeptical, however once he learns that the Death Note is a tool used by the Shinigami's (Death Gods) which has the power to kill anyone who's name is written on its pages, Light decides to use the Death Note to "Cleanse" the world of evil. Eventually because of the unexplainable deaths of reported criminals was noted, Light becomes hunted by the Japanese Police force and a mysterious detective known only as "L". "L" quickly learns that the muderer, whom the public has dubbed "Kira", is located in Japan, and that he can kill by knowing someones face and name. Light realizes that "L" is just as clever, if not more intellegent them himself and begins a "cat and mouse" chase with "L" to see who will be the first to have their identity exposed.

THE END

why must u read this manga??

1)well this is not those fucking long comic liek naruto or bleach it onli have 100 chapters..incase u guys feel it is damn long ..then u must see naruto or bleach which already around 200 to 300 chapters and there is no sign of dropping..at least u wont be addicted when everything end

2) it is about criminal and detective trying to find who is who..the dialog and the story is really interesting and the ittelect of each character is not what to be seen in reality world..u will never think 2 college student like many of us can be able to play trick to fool those adults so much..

3) character inside is freaking hot...light yagami the main character is a charming guy(i am straight!!) and the girls inside is not bad too...so guys and girls ..if u fedup with the not so nice looking guy in planet earth..be fantasy a bit and satisfy your dissatisfaction in this manga..for some freak..the DEATH GOD is really cool..please look at them just in case u are not interested in guy or girl(what are u ?an animal??)

that is all the reason i need to tell u guys..and that is more than enough..in case again u are so outdated..the cinema already use the manga to create a movie..acted by real person in japan..i believe on GSC got the ticket and not TGV..go and have a look before u decide to watch it a not since the movie is onli part one ...and not ended yet..i think it will be more popular than those super heroes spiderman or super man ..

well for more information plese visit... www.death-notes.com

inside got manga and also the anime to be downloaded and also the movie..but it is RAW movie..which mean no subtitle..come on RM 10 wont be much to watch the movie in cinema..hahh..i am not hard sellng this anime..it just that i wan to share with everyone...hope u guys enjoy and love what i introduce..

next post will be reviewing what online game i play...heeheh

2006-11-10T16:26:00.000+08:00

Thanks to zen i need to these thing...ish i going to get u zen!!!

1. Put your music player on shuffle.

2. Press forward for each question.

3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense.

4. Tag 5 ppl at their tag board to ask them to do this!

5. Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

How is u feeling today??
U2 – Stuck in a moment
Yeah… I am stuck with my assignment and that really STUCK!

Will u get far in life??
Gackt - Redemption
I will of coz after I redeem all knowledge and experience.

How do your friends see you??
Mark Joseph – Fly
Flying? I think they think I got lot freedom, but actually I am just flying inside someone cage sob sob

Will u get married??
Kym Marsh – Because of you
It depends on situation. I might marry because of u...or I might forget about this matter just because of u...But that question out of mind now unless I am careless in tooooott….

What is your best friend’s theme song??
Keane – Everybody changing
Well… this question how do I know?? Every human changing their like dislike in just a few seconds anyway.

What is the story of your life??
Jennifer Lopez – If you have my love
Huh?? No ideal… maybe u will get it when u has my love…

What was high school like??
Danny – Love and freedom
That’s it!!! We can love and be more freedom than currently state

How can u get ahead in life??
Richie Ren – One person
Yeah…sometimes being alone gets to solve lot of crap…

What is the best thing about your friends??
Shaggy – Angel
Oh my god?? Are they?? I hope...

What is in store for this weekend??
Gavin DeGraw – Just friends
Might be just hanging with friends… but pile of works undone. No fuck!!!

What song describes u?
Westlife – World of our own
Yeah, but not often…but being alone is really not that bad…

To describe your grandparents??
Shaggy – Dance and shout
They can really shout but dance??Haha...i really want to see...

How is your life going??
Nicholes Tse – You can’t stop me
Yeah, no one can stop me from doing what I wan now…no considerate…no fear…no fuck!!!

What song will they play on your funeral??
Cecilia Cheung – Yesterday and Tomorrow
Not bad… remain the memory prepare for after life.

How does the world see you??
Robbie Williams – Better man
They should be seeing a better me…losing the past me…

Will you have a happy life??
Jordan Chan – My love
Being with the beloved…I guess everyone will be happy…that is my minimum requirement…

What do your friends really think of u??
Avril Lavigne – Complicated
What the hell?? Yeah, I am always complicated for outsiders

Do people secretly lust you??
A1 – Every time
Hehehe..I wish every time I got such luck…

How can I make myself happy??
Ashlee Simpson – Shadow
Being a shadow??

Will your ever have children??
Santana – Smooth
IF everything goes smooth…that is for sure…

I WISH TO TAG

NOBODY!!! I AM NOT AS EVIL AS ZEN!!

CHS Jubilee Concert

2006-11-06T22:10:00.000+08:00

today test is really a hectic..miss bobbie is crazy than usual..but anyhow at least i feel like blogging..it mean i feel relax and too free to do anything..

two days ago which is on saturday...CHS(catholic high school) have their jubilee concert..this year CHS been doing lot of activity..i am kinda jealous..u know~~such activity can really make student enjoy lot of organzing and also fun ...

right there met lot of old fren that still loyal to old school by taking STPM and also old face of strict teacher..for 5SF1,2005..here is a a news..Pn Lim(our maha syaitan) 's husband sick had become really bad..until she is not free to attend the concert..eventhough i really scare of her at time..but when i heard of this..the feeling really sux..

anyhow i am out of topic..i dunno what to said about this concert..because it just all performing and the purpose of this concert is to tell public that the CHS student can be very excellent in everythng..performers included danciing..singing..magic..instrument playing and many more..but for me personally some is kinda boring..but overall is still good..

due to the lighting ..and my weak camera ..picture is not a good quality to see(actually u cant see anything...get conned by olympus!!!)..but miracle the video works..so instead taking photo ..i will include some of the video..total got 4 ..i onli put up 2(you tube uploading is really slow) so if u guys wan the others..just pm me and i will reply as soon as possible..

first of all let see some hot chick...

do u guys/gurls ever watch this music video by jolin's dancing diva???if u do ,i guess u guys must be impress with that diva's dance..a bunch of form 3 i think try to immitate her..actually not 100% but still..it really good..

*due to technical problem...please visit... http://www.youtube.com/v/EcARbJVIyaY

beside that also got..wushu club doing wushu(duh!!!) the performance is ok ..but 5 years in CHS..i feel kinda bored with it already..i am actually suppose to upload another performance which is another dancing by a bunch of dunno form what liow..guess what song they dancing..tadah!!!rising sun from TONG FANG SHEN QI..too bad i will not upload at this moment since it really take freaking long..so enjoy wushu instead hehehe...

due to technical problem please visit..http://www.youtube.com/v/8DL3xmupB6U

align="center">after the concert..gone for a tea with cheng hong ,mei choo,michelle and lim yong..long time no see them liow..so it kinda cool..the tea drinking is not that boring as i expected...we just got too much thing to share ..especially michelle very own magic card(she even had a storyline for the magic she do..arent she cool!!!)

if i am free i will upload other video and if the picture can be editted then i will try to post it..

sayonara!!!

What type of Fae are u ??

2006-11-04T16:25:00.000+08:00

got this from wan xin blog(yeah, i read your blog ok!!) haha..

some true some not..but somehow it reflect i am a quite normal person

satisfy with answer...lol ..

(2 post liow a day...stress with test..ish!!)

Parents Wedding Anniversary Dinner

2006-11-04T09:45:00.000+08:00

on the 2nd november, 26 years ago..a couple decided to make promise to each other to walk on new path to marriage..26 years later, now they are with their daughters,son and also grandson!!..they celebrate their 26 years of happiness..hhaha..at a very normal restaurant onli...cheh!!!

ignore the nite city..it is the upper floor..i am having my dinner at LOWER FLOOR!!!

nothing much to describe what had happen that night...photos will do the job..

taken before dinner..rapist decided to become superman...

but he think singh is better..

from the smile----"good,i love this suit"

his mind----"this will be the best chance to rape singh baby"

me and irene..

me ,irene,winni,cindy...

rapist's family..winni and mick..

rapist shitting pose..

rapist's side kick,,

makan makan!!!

from the whole night dinner..we heard lot bout our family history and kinda miss what happen when we are still very young..

once a while having such dinner is not realy that bad..

because u will thought and never expected so many thing had happen

and all happen in just a blink of an eye..

time really go faster than anything

appreciatte who u are ,what u have..and also ppl around u

good luck!!!

Dream Phone (Sony Ericson z610i)

2006-10-29T17:42:00.000+08:00

whoever bought this phone for me..

i will treat them like god ...

this phone is much more better than others..

good job sony ericson!!!!

now lets welcome..the Sony Ericson z610i!!!

GORGEUS!!!

Seductive clamshell
You’ll want to touch it. Run your fingers across the soft and distinct shapes, feel the high-quality surface against your skin. And look out for the external display's hidden mirror effect – it's only visible when your Z610i is lit up.

Camera and blog
No matter where you go, you're ready to catch the moment. The Z610i has an impressive 2.0-megapixel camera. Snap a picture and upload it on the go to your own personal blog page. Picture blogging provides an excellent way to share your experiences with family, friends and colleagues. Your Z610i comes complete with all the settings you need – your blog is up and running in just a few clicks on the navigation key.

Video calls
Take advantage of the Z610i’s 3G capabilities. Use more than just words: go for a video call. During a call, you can switch between the video call camera and the main camera. When using the main camera, you can show the person you're talking to what you see.

3G, push email, web
3G means speed. Browse the web wherever you are, download heavy email attachments in no time. Push email* lets you receive email straight to your phone. And you can save even more time through multitasking. For example, you can browse the web and make a seat reservation via a website during a phone call.

Fun – games, video, music
The Z610i has also been created to be your leisure time companion. Challenge yourself to a 3D game. Use the music player to listen to your favourite tracks. All the software you need to copy music from CD to phone is included in the Z610i kit. Store all the files you need and want on Memory Stick Micro™ (M2™). A 64MB unit is included with your phone, and units of up to 2GB are available in stores.

Camera First Task

2006-10-28T17:41:00.000+08:00

Bought a new cam today

but never go home

decided to stay over at my sis house for a little while

since nothing to do

use the new cam to do his first task ...

THE EVIL WANTED BABY...

evil laugh after enjoying raping the innocent baby girl ....

changing clothes to prevent being recognize by others that he is the most wanted

BABY RAPER...

(but why cheongsam???no one understand what rapist think)

everything done..time to look for the next victim...

on to his vehicle ... call aunt

everyone!!!!beware of the baby raper!!!

p/s:i know this is kinda lame..but u got no ideal how boring i am here!!!hehehe

have a nice day!!!

Baby wanted!!!

2006-10-02T15:38:00.000+08:00

hmm..i will introduce my family new member...my little nephew aka little satand child..Khee MIn!!!!!

He is one lucky little devil that interest in lot of thing since the day he was born..below the picture of him watching porn...

And masturbating...after having chest rub by her mom...

The Punk look ...with a evil smile..to Atract smaller girl baby...

Dun think he look innocent ..coz he is not...

Everything on his look is a big lie...

LIAR!!!!

LIAR!!!!LIAR!!!

BABY LIAR ON THE MOVE!!!SMALL BABY GIRL PLEASE ON
ALERT!!!!...

hahah..well he is not permament staying with me now..everything come home after exhausted college assignment..i stil have to hold the toy and waving around him..to let him have some fun..sometimes he laugh at us looking how silly we are..sometime he will shout asking milk from all of us..sometime he just shit and urine whenever he wan..cry whenever he wan carry even knowing everyone got back pain carriying one whole day!!!!!

THATS WHY HE IS SUCH A EVILL!!!!!

remember what i said above all lie?????from the investigation..he actually look like this......

SEE!!!he is such a ugly evil baby!!!BEWARE!!!

2006-10-01T16:23:00.000+08:00

the LAN classmate of sep2006 intake..(me with a chocolate,
not with a gold tonque)..lazy to name alll..message me if u
interested in anyone...

my LAN presentation teammate..a bunch of poser
(samuel look sissy,lysun follow him as well)

team mate..from left joshua,lysun,samuel,me and jecht...

Never bring camera..that is all i got..but nothing much interesting..it just a bunch of ppl trying hard to make the crowd happy and score high mark for our LAN subject(i got A- for this presentation..conside good coz we never do well..all last minute...)hahah...

SEGi mooncake festival

2006-09-30T18:56:00.000+08:00

the student council..the organizer..(from left)me,victor,alice,ashley,emily,daniel,imran and the new member which i dunno what name...

(from right)me,uthaya,pn shamala,thuga..and who the heck is she??
anyway,who say indian cannot celebrate mooncake festival!!

(from the left)imran, me and daniel..

Uthaya (on the left)..the most humour LAN lecturer..

Uthaya's team busy with the candle drawing competition!!

i dun have a camera that why i cant take any interesting picture..onli get this few from ashley..feel so exhausted after everything...reach home then receive sheng call..to yam cha with hao zhi..good ideal..have not eat dinner ..dun have camera and it just a short session of yam cha because i so freaking tired..so no picture and nothing interesting....

(me..during the preparation for the event inside the council room.)
taken by daniel..

dumb

2006-08-01T01:34:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really dunno whether she responsible for what she doing a not..this is what happen..after quarrel and quarrel ..she still dun get what i mean..i know she is innocent ..but is she really that so much..a quarrel start by her and problem created by her..i am really hurt of her act and what she done..really lorh..i expect she will say sorry and promise to change...but she dun ..she tell me she hurt too..(hello..u make people angry ..now u telling me that u are angry also??) dun make sense at all..fine..i expected her to do something..and i tell her i am not confident with what we are going anymore..i thought she will say ..i will help u regain your confident..guess did she said that ??nop!! she never..at last i fedup and said i do everything my ownself..wow..one more surprise..she agree with that..ish ..i onli see selfishness in her..she make me angry and she hope i can settle thing myself..well she did ask me that what she can do..but do u think i can answer thing like that..come on ..commom sense also know that ..i cant answer this kinda question in my place right??well i give up calling her to do thing for me in this mater..i take everything myself..and what it mean??the quarrel is useless..after being angry a while..she make like i am the bad guy..the evil wan..and wan me to pujuk her back...really big shocking what she done..i never met somebody like that b4..seriously i think there is no way the confident will regain with her attidude like that..she make me think she not mature at all...childish..

( i am talking about my college fren ...dun mind me)

...

2006-07-19T22:03:00.000+08:00

sometimes life is really funny..thing dun go very logic even though u think thats how is suppose to be..especially relation between human..it is very complex..when u cherish someone and try very hard to do archieve what they wan..of course u think that he or she will be vey thankful to ya..but it is the other way aorund..they think that we shud do stuff for them which is inlogical..but it do happen in reality even it dont make sense at all

human worth is something very weird ...in example..u do so much thing for your company end up ur boss give ya a white fire letter..same it applied inrelation..after u done so much for them..your single tiny wrong is enough for them to be angry and forget how they make u suffer and what u done for them..

hmm..is that call selfishness??for one happiness ..we tend to ignore other people and never take the chance to know them whether they are happy with ya a not..it is true that in order to archieve perfection..people tend to forget the dearest beside them..maybe thats how the society go..everyone got to applied on it..and everyone is a victim..

sad case...

2006-07-17T23:55:00.000+08:00

taylor dane compettion..cant get the performance photo ..
so this is what i can get..

no more

2006-07-17T23:23:00.001+08:00

well..this few days been reading my blog..sound so sad..no wonder everyone think i am such a PMS(poor man suffering)..i might be once..but no more dee!!i will write a better blog..ensure my life is great and enjoyable..every single secong in my life will be full of passion and excitement..i promise u bloggy!!!muahahha..chaos is back dude!!

well first lets talk about taylor dance competition..i arrive late because 9th pj is having a campfire and i got to supervise how they going..so i onli be able to see the last candidate that is the :INFERNO:..and also the winner of that competition..it consist of 3 and a half guy..because zhen consider one of them is gay..their stance is cool..the edited song is nice..so envious they can dance and enjoy in the meanwhile i can onli dance like a wood..even after the competition ..when there is a party..i feel so weird myself dancing..but not all my fault ok..just the feel is not there..i prefer going with my sibling to club last time..they are freaking crazy and the feel wont last..the :HiGH: feel ..haha
picture will be updated after zhen send it to me..

the following day ..is the campfire of 9th pj scout group,catholic high..it is a great event ..those junior do very well..proud to be their senior last time..especially the slide show..it so touching and it hit the theme really good..the performance as well..i think calyc is always improving..they just got better and better..they wake the crowd up and it just cool..they deserve to win in cheer 2006..beside those event..i get to meet other senior that long lost already ..like eugene..ming shen ,chun fai and many others..

this weekend is cool..no test and non stop enjoyment..even busy and frustrated..i guess life should be like that..even pressure and stress and disspointment is in the air..and we cant run away from sucking them..but we can also release in the other way just like breathing..oor u prefer farting also can ..even life is always alone at certain period and u found it hard to face..i guess i shud face it in a positive and with a smile..take it a chalange..not a fate..and one more thing...i wont keep anger in anyone..because i wan to be look up and i wont mind what problem they leave for me..as long as i never do bad thing..i will be alright..

no sad post anymore..i will live better and live stronger..

terible

2006-07-15T01:12:00.000+08:00

i feel so not me today..feel more like a slave..
damn unhappy..how can they say such word to me..
dun they know what i done for them??..
why they treat me so cruell..
why is it so unfair for me..
why i am the one suffering..
why i am the one that having sleepless night
why i am the one that heartache almost every second
why can i cool down after being hurt..
i feel so uneasy
i feel so unstable
i got no confident
i got no dream anymore
i got no emotion
i feel like dying.
feel like crushing myself

dunno

2006-07-09T05:58:00.000+08:00

..now..it is 6 am sharp..i sleep so late but i wake up so freaking early..i dunno why..something been starting to bother the way i live..the way of emotion..the way of bringing me to a healthy me..i turning myself to upside down freak..emotionless..and recntly full with sick..i really hope i got to change..but no one really can change how it flow..maybe that is the challenge of my life..to fulfill all of it..with onli me alone and no one to help out..kinda sad..for such a time no one been really giving me a hand in eveything..and even though i tend to make everything right with my own bare hand..no one tend to notice..i am very suffering at first but now i am used to it already..without support and help..i will still stand strong..i dun care..and i will..

girl fight

2006-07-03T17:48:00.000+08:00

well for those who read newspaper and aware of news happening..u might know that there is a fight in dunno which school that involve school girl that is recored on the mobile phone..

i wonder what happen to girls nowadays ..violent and full with naive..they think they are so cool by losing their morale and being a beast..and all i heard in the whole clip is "NI YOU MEI YOU CHIANG!!NI YOU MEI YOU CHING"(do u say anything!!do u say anything)

from what the police report..this victim offended the boy friend of this bunch of beast girl..which i cannot accept that reason is enough to beat this girl up..i thought if anyone offended a girl,the girl will onli call her bf which is a triad boss or what to fight for them..i never ever thought the girll will go down on them own and recorded the whole thing up which i thought is stupid enough ..

i think i shud not talk much ..as kenny said.. they will come find me and "NI YOU MEI YOU BLOG!!!NI YOU MEI YOU BLOG!!" ..end up u will see my video being bully by a bunch of violent girls hehe..

nothing cool

2006-07-02T12:42:00.000+08:00

what the hell..i write so damn long post end up dc..

carnival of CHS happen yesterday ..due to their 50th anniversary..there is lot if thing to see...scout selling campfire badges and doing amazing maze..and SLAD selling sushi..good for them anyway..i guess both club earn a lot as i hear..michelle class do haunted house and she selling cake too..i am sorry to her for not buying the cake..but i really cant find any meaning buying.i dun waste money..sorry mich..hhaa..but i have to congratulate her for doing well in the haunted house and earn her club as much as 700 right???

saw friend and talk to teacher that i used to hate..walking around to see anything interesting..visit school new facilities and lots more..but anyhow..thing dun go really well..it do seem nice ..but i feel different because maybe we are not the organizer and we are not part of it ..and i dun interested in this event..end up being exhauted and tired of talking and walking..even talking to friend make me feel tired..but not all..at least some unexpected people tend to help me past time..which i feel much alive in the carnical..i dunno why i become so stick to myself all the time..maybe diossapoinment,experience and background build who i am now..well i still try to make life interesting and better all the time..

anyhow somebody leavbe a scratch on my car./.maybe a noob driver i guess..i feel even worst..have to explain to parents and settle thing up ..and no one understand me..guess thats my luck this year ..anyhow i find something that make me feel better..being onli a memeber in student council really make me relive..polictic do happen and glad i am not committee..so i could avoid politic...i always hate politic when people fake to each other..the best example i guess is DR M and PAK LAH for their stupid action that drop the image of the prime minister..they complete destroy the respect i have for them ...good luck and wish them die ealrier..

interesting

2006-06-30T15:18:00.000+08:00

something really interesting with my feeling here..i always walking around looking at people..friend family and also stranger..in just an instant i can see what kind person they are by just looking at them..this is pretty kewl..mostly what i seem are right..and i found that people around me ..major of them is not really such an ideal person..they just full of crap in them which i feel irritate just by looking at them..

kinda dissapointed with them ..they dun impress me..onli make me tickle myself..dunno why ..maybe last time i thought analyzing someone with my own thought is not a good manners..now is so diff ..i put tooo much thought on them and also i look too high on them..they are just worst than trash which is so fake..well ppl like them wont be real..haha..so imcomplete human..with flesh and no emotion..

alone is now i should be maintain..what i have now and what i see now..i really feel like wanna threw it away and start my whole thing again..it is so upside down now..lot of thought and that just make me wanna clean it all up..

no feeling to blog and talk anymore..those ppl..u know who..shut the hell up!!

tokyo drift photo

2006-06-17T02:34:00.000+08:00

change

2006-06-17T02:18:00.000+08:00

well..i dunno i should be happy or not..friend of mine just message and apologize because i said some angry word toward him ..well actually i nvr meant to make thing misunderstood ok ..i am just trying to be joke around onli..well cant blame him..i feel i gone a deep change..i started to find my ownself..which is good!but if my attidude this way make people around me think i am trying to pick a fight with them..it is so bad!that explain i dunno i shud be happy or not..

recently i do feel a change..i start to saying bye to my old self..i talk deifferent..i act diff and i see diff..untill now i still dunno am i doing the right thing..i am becoming fussy of what i wan ..but i do feel a bit cheer up all the time which i dun last time..maybe a change really do bring benefits and in mean time..not at all..i know its true that i shud be acting like myself and never care bout anyone of how they look at u ..well i am very sure that i dun wan my surrounding full with feeling of horror and fear ..so if i really wan to change to someone that make ppl annoyed and misunderstood always..i think i will remain even if i feel better..well people have to make terrible choice at all time..i am really sick of making decision..but thats what life for..so i am still alright with it by accepting who am i and what the god wan from me..i dunno what i am talking in here..

by the way ..THE FAST AND FURIOUS 3: TOKYO DRIFT is hell of a show man!! it surpass the previous wan ..with more action and asian japanese babes..those hot chick is damn fake man!! and the cars is wow!!! and their drift like YEAH!!! hhaha..i wan to go japan...

sleepless

2006-06-10T15:22:00.000+08:00

i used to be one fellow that slep day tonight and from night to day..i used to be damn pig that i dun hear my ultra loud alarm and needed my sis from the other room to wake me up because she cannot bear to let the the alarm sound that hurting her ear but not mine...

all this is gone..i am sleepless ..everytime i just cant get into perfect sleep..and i look like shit every morning..i klnow what happen..it is because i been thinking too much ...every night i been thinking what the hell alll those jerk done to me and now i become vampire that wander alone at night ...the thing i dun undertsand is why i am not that fortunate like others..

why is it like i am born to suffer all those thing ..whenever i have a little hope on some matter..everyone will be rushing to destroy..i am no good..i am feeling realy tired..i am feeling really alone..i know i cant stand long..i need a good sleepp..please grant me one anyone..i hate those jerks that make my life so many problem..i wan to free from them..i wan to start a new world..i wan to be a perfect human being that is able to sleep more than 10 hours...

...

2006-06-05T22:06:00.000+08:00

if there is any readers here..i bet u sure find out something..in case u dunno i will just explain...when zhien wei write a blog post..mostly of the time is really sad..i might be very piss off at times...so when i post i dun think it is something good..but i dun blog even worst..that mean that i dun even feel like talking about it..conclusion..i got too man bad days

getting fever twice in 2 weeks i totally stupid..i dunno why it happen just like that..i think that because i nvr take care of myself..but i am not ..i sleep well and i eat well..no way i will got easily sick just like those people in africa that sick because out of food..then i guess i am sick because my way of life..and that toally answer my question..recently things not going too well..find out too many thing..hurt by hell lot of factors..and thinking of all the fucks..i dun feel fair at all..i just lazy to list all out ...because it will be damn long and i will be really hurt to read the pain in my life..

it is ok if it happen once a while..but for those who dun know me well..actually i shud say that none of outside there know who the really me..even my parents..even her dun know me at all..it is not that i keep everything on my own..i know it is offencing to say so ..but u need effort if u really wan to know me..i guess this wprd dun hurt anyone because no one tend to understand me at all..for those who think they know me..blast off..onli i can judge u do well in understanding me a not..once again..i am saying that i am not those who keep eevrythin on my own..if u say i keep those..then u are just someone who not doing effort at all..i tell u i love to keep thing my own just because i am tired of your "no heart" act and to make u feel better..finnaly i still understand u people need..

happiness??for me it just a word..but for dissapointed..unfair..sad..and many more is those word thati truly understand and experience before..so dun argue with me and say i dun understand..u are just rejecting to believe u scum!!..

i feel better nowadays when i finally get to be alone..i dun love crowded..that just make me feel irritated and the feeling like u will got con and got heart pain is really not good after all..well i believe i am one tough one ..somebody might not think so ..because i dun wan to act tough..i believe i am tough and u cant argue with me ..i dun say gossip..even i do ..u really deserve it!!!(which i not yet start doing)..because this kinda toughness i believe i am not in some mental hospital..i guess when the god give u 99% of sadness they still let u have 1% for u stay alive..so they can torture u really well..it really need touchness to survice and i do survive..please for anyone reading this..dun call me a freak ..if u think so ..then what i say above is right for u ..then i dun really mind..because u are just not a fren that worth for me to catch an eye on u ...sayonara!!!

nephew

2006-06-04T22:23:00.000+08:00

last week..on the 30th of may..at 7 20 of i am not wrong..a new life..an innocent soul..is brought to the world..he is my newphew..the baby of my big sis..i always use to think that born a baby is something really hard..but i think everyone can be able to handle ..even for a man if they are given a chance to do so ...which is impossible...

at the morning 7 am...my sis started her hours of hell with pain that cannot be describe in words..when i look at her..i know she cant take any single of that even it is one second..my heart feel so bitter..i want to help her so much ..but that is just a dream that wont come true..guess what..the total time for her to groan in pain is 12 hours!!!...it is hell long time..after i eat sleep and play also not yet born..i like what the hell..i given so many call to my brother in law..he like very fan liow to hear my sound..and he also tell me that his sand is in pain because my sis keep on grabbing him..my sis is not a violent person and my bro in law is really a muscle man..that one i really dunno how to feel at the moment...

if u ppl wondering why so long that it take 12 hourss..is because my sis is a lazy freak..that eat sleep and eat thats why her "there" can open widely so have to wait and wait till it is big enough lorh ...hahha..maybe should blame herself ..too bad lorh..

the moment the baby is born really bring lot of chnagess..everyone is happy bout it..my realative that seldom meet also come and visit us and ask about it..i suddenly in one night jadi uncle i also dunno how to say about my feeling..i used to think it is nothing..but now i got the feeling that i should always teach him to be a useful man...hahhaa

well that all for today ..will post his picture as fast as possible...

benfit

2006-06-03T15:04:00.000+08:00

people can be really realistic at time..what they really wan from u something so simple..benefit benefit and benefit..when anyone do have benefit for others..it do give him or her a good policy because he or she get massive attention..but if anyone without it ..people will not ever try to be responsible toward u ..they can make u piss off and they dun break a sweat..they dun find themself making any wrong...they just complain we are too sensitive to be angry..thing like this nvr appear onli between stranger but also frenship loveship..and also family ship(is that what they call??)

i find out something really stupid..being in a bad guy situation is really going to make u having a good phase..u dun need to worry much because those good guys will do everything for u ..u dun have to rush for a appoinment..u dun need to feel bad when u says something wrong..u wont feel bad when u put the blame on other..u wun feel bad when u make some joke that is very insulting..because whenever the opposite fellow u are dealing with gone angry..u can solve it by telling everyone that he or she is sensitive,not open minded..cant take joke or he/she is a wood and many many more

beside .,.being a good guy..u need to do completely the other way round of the bad guys do and it will of coz double your brain damage cell and u have to be look dowm ..and u cant be angry ..because ppl tend to tell u are sensitive and those irresponsible and not true word..

is that how the morale value exist in this world..is this world really that wonderful to live on ..in career..education..family..and lot of industry..incident like this occur uncountable number..especially in politics..we are not done from history cold war..we never end any cold war in anyone heart..people love to gossip and talk bad about each other..both for me have been majority of everyone personality ..as for the minority..they just born to sufer..

things like that i really cant be able to understand..i cant be able to change but i do feel proud of myself that i dun allowed myself to suit with this negative personality ...treating each or every single humang beings in this universe with heart and help them when they need is always my point to move on with my life..i am not trying to say i am a priest or what..it just that i am not that kind of bastard that move on and hurting bunch of ppl heart everyday ..people like that should go to hell no mater how success he or she was in his life..treating people like dog already lose the meaning of living in this world..talking bad bout others to cover his evil deed is shit..talking like he is the king of the conversation and telling people sensitive when they say something really fuck is bull shit..and not appreciatte others and looking for benefit from surrrounding is damn shit..

i still dun understand why i am destined to meet up with bunch of people like that.,i think the worst thing is u have to face people everyda that is so evil..because that is deep shit!!!

....

2006-05-12T00:59:00.000+08:00

hey!! its been very long since i last blog..busy with test and revision..
well even though next week still got test..i just feel like i am going to blog about something here.. i find out something very special nowadays..peoples tend to never apreciatte your good deeds.. i am not being a perasan ppl here..i know i help lot of ppl out there..and i help them good!!real good!!..but seriously i know i shud not ask much in return from them..and i never did!! but what i hope u ppl do appreciatte my sacrifice and i waste time and lotsa thing just to ensure u get through ur fucking life better..

i know some of u people will just say "thanks for your help,gonna apreciatte what u do!!" dun bull shit ok !!!..i mean..if u can say all this thing then please be responsible to it..some people might think.."alah he got appreciatte u wan !!u think too much"..this is also nonsense..i can sense man..we can be able to sense all sort of emotion and feeling..and it kinda obvious..if u ppl that said such thing before..ask yourself wether u cold-blooded or someone lack of sensitivity..

i am being piss off ..just dissapointed.. lot of incident telling me that u sacrifice is for shit..and my sacrifice seem to be so worthless..not even a penny..the most funny part is when ppl laugh at what u did so much for them and claim myself as a "water fish"..that is the fuck thing...

be respoinsible to your fren and please appreciatte them if they do so much just to let you live better..dun laugh and underestimate ppl like them..they might be the one that hold your key for future..and it is their decision to open the lock for u ppl ok!!!...

nowadays parent is going really wild..they are going out of control..i heard my mom telling me that my aunt just curse her daughter to die early and wish her daughter got rape or something..well that is so evil..i mean ..i know u are the mom ..u suffer for 9 months just to born her..thats why u think u got the rigth to make her die or alive...but what do u think when your mom do it u??will u feel sad..i will feel like killing everyone in my path down the road when i get so pissed of and run away from home..

parents shud think more their children side and dun so arrogant larh ...stupid little small thing then grounded alrady..but their main reason just dun wan u waste money at outside and many thing larh ..now and this very moment ..damn dissapointed man ..to heard so news and been crush by so many incident..then i will start being moody and dun feel like doing anything..

meanwhile..i also will think a lot ..ppl will keep telling me.."why u think so much ,,dun think!! be happy !!"this is so stupid..it is a problem lorh?!!!!will u be happy when u dun think the asnwer for your question in the SPM paper??no right ..once a problem is not conclude..i will not stop thinking..even u ppl think i am right or wrong to think this way..is to let u think!!! none of business..dun call me dun think..even if i think for the sake of u ..then u shud be glad..and be apreciatte like what i said above..dun nagging here and there tellling me i am dumb..very annoying lorh ..imagine..u help another so much and make yourself suffer..u of coz expect some grateful ..but in the end he tease and laugh at u !!..what u feel!!! ..damn shit right..even u dun feel like telling him or her u are grateful..at least keep your mouth shut when he or she is thinking..it do help !!..please understand..maybe it wont for some..but mmajority will ..that "some" of ppl in my opinion is just someone that not responsible to their life..

something even worst is i feel that ppl that is more "licik" really love to play people feeling..and they are the one that getting the most attention..i dunno why when some of them think the "feeling-player" is so evil..they still intend to go near them and chit chit chat chat...it is so obvious he or she just wanna main main and use u for him or her to go higher and pulling u down..so dun tell me u dunno anything!!! hate some girl that after break up say something like "he play me!!i dunno he play me" is it that hard to see thorugh ppl hearts??or maybe i used to it already ..but saying on those ppl who still go near them ...i am also one of them..so i shud knock my head sometime in a while to change some stupid habit...

oh yeah one more thing..i hate innocent and cute ppl nowadays..being a lad for 18 years..i never feel so humilated before ..and i being humilated just because she got that damn fucking cute and innocent face..that make everyone think i rape her whole family !!!i guess none of u ppl will gonan understand the feeling..never judge a book by it cover..so i wont just pity any ppl who act innocent...i will give them one strike and smash on their face i tell u !!!(beside baby larh )..

bad day

2006-04-19T12:09:00.000+08:00

been telling her yesterday that my eye is not feeling well..i cant sit still..i cant concentrate..i dun feel good larh haih..i told her that something bad is gonna happen..something REALLYY bad will happen..but end up yesterday nothing happen after i stuck myself home the whole day and at my room for hours!!!so today wake u p kinda relief then go college...ish ish ish..went college my nightmare happen!!i study wrong thing for maths..forget everything..pass and fail through my prediction ..i am just at the border line..ish ish ish..i know something bad gonna happen..this is just the beginning..

clover..my classmate suddenly got stomachache ..so as always..the good heart and kind hearted me said "hey !!go home and sleep larh..i give u a ride"...who will be so good ppl ..u tell me!!clover is sort of like just a noral fren..and i just knew her a few months..i am not even know her very well..u ppl might think maybe her beauty attract me..but i am not that kinda ppl!!!(enenthough i do think she sort of hot !! :P) ..i cant prove that i am not those ppl by telling u ppl the godzilla of tokyo a.k.a Foo Zhen Cui is my "kai LUI" and the kind of all beast is a.k.a beast kwan yee ming and his mentor and king of all hell satan oii tuan leng is my fren..thats why!!!cant u see i am angel from heaven..i even pity someone like chin fei ..that addict to donkey sucking ..haih..one more one more!!i also got a most retard child michelle leong that always seek for sweet from me!!!no one dare to go near them..but i am not those...so i am an angel somehow

Cut the crap..on the way fetching clover home..i have to go through this traffic light..damn when it is my turn to turn the light show red..and suddenly i feel something trigger me..i feel something!!! like the scene from the movie final destination..the onli thing i dun have is a vision..damn!!! after i make a turn..i heard a honk..and from my back mirror..i saw someone that look like a police..well my thought is "damn u !!i not driving fast also ...why honk??"

dun care larh ..i drive onli then till another trafffic light..he call me park somewhere!!!i like..i know the sense is no wrong..something is gonna happen..negotiate and negotiate..clover is scare there that she dun even to move..worry the police gonna rape her or something..i say dun worry larh!!!i wont let him touch u wan..look at his face!!!he look so innocent(but cant blame clover..he really loook like a serial rapist..i hope police force must be put higher standard in reqruit poliuce officer in look..they really look more like robber than life saver!!)...well i thought this police is diff..i thought he will give me saman without asking for moiney..i am wrong..damn wrong..he ask for moenya nyhow..i nvr say anything..beside "give me a chance,give me a chance" hahha...

i am in college IT room..sense something not right until at night..i sudenly feel like blogging ..just because i worry i cant be bloggging anymore after tonight hahah..by the way ...i really hate the feeling like u know somehting gonna happen but u dunno what it is!!!i rather i dun have those feeling..it make me start thinking and thinking..god!!if u are around..please tkae those away from me..it is so stupid i tell u..if u wan us to feel..then give us a way to prevent it ..u shud let me know i should obey the rule right..then the officer wotn do any sin and i wont be losing money larh...haih..one day i die liow..i will change and make everyone either know the future or dunno anything at alll ok!!!!i promise u human being...

yo!! i am back

2006-04-12T11:39:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey...the devil is back !!!hahah...sorry for those who read my blog(onli a few of them i guess :P) i am finally back to bloggging again!!!dun ask me why ..it is sad to think back..haih..lot of thing happen nowadays..it may be a bad experience or a lesson in life..wake up everyday in the morning i feel that i got a long hard way to go till tomoro..so i really hope night will reach where i can enjoy lying on my bed and when it is night..but i hope the night will remain forever because i udn need to face the another tomoro(dream on!!) haha..

i still remember once someone told me that a leo (i mean my birthday star) is someone that really need attention from lot of people..i always thought it is real because i always feel really bad when i am left alone..and being neglected..i thought it is not a good attidude to remain when i knew i got something like that..i rrefuse to change ..i refuse because i know i am born like that..god make me like that..my childhood make me like that..and that is how the fate want me to be..that is how i think during the period of my teenager life..so during that time..i try hard to make more fren(to look liek a boss) make myself look smart(to impress girl) make myself full of sense of humor(to make everyone around me to like me)...that is how my life keep on for a long long time..

life is totally a different way ..when i gone into college..with a deserted place like this..a class which consist only 7 ppl..it is really hard for me..i feel boring..it doesnt mean that they are no good..i agree with yee shuang saying that anyone cannot stay in a gang for a very long time..i used to have fun time with my new classmate for a month something..but when all the excitement over..and when i got to know them lot..i feel very blank..i dunno what to say to them when i meet them or in any event when i got to do something with them..so during this chaos time(chaos that seem so calm) i miss my old schoolmate..i remmeber the moment where i got to have fun around and different fren is all around the corner ..wow!!make me wanna tear liow (but i never...devil never cry marh )i look for them ..i ask them out..somehow i unno why ...the feeling is not what i expected..we seem so stranger to each other..maybe that is what happen when everyone got their own life in some place..so everytime i am back after having fun with them..i try to find the excitement but it just never appear..that is really sad ...

haha...reader please do not think i am going to jump off the building or not..well i certainly will n0t...haha(are u dissapointed??)i find for a way ..i find a new life..i knew i cant stick with my past anymore..i try to make myself used to being alone so i can fell much better..i try to make more friend within the college..and let myself none stop learning..voila!!!haha..i feel much happier..it does not mean that my past is a tragic..it just that a new situation need a new way of life..so in my situation..i am just happy i found the right way of living to suit my situation..peace!!!

i learn a lot recently ..something that beyond my imagination..i am really happy with it..i also learn to be independant when i am totally alone..i try to full used my time..so i wont be thinking bad thing and negative stuff..i am getting happier and happier..much more cheerful than ever..

now..when i am writing this post..i feel how stupid i am last time to refuse to change my bad..if ia m able to change now..why cant i change last time..i wasted a lot of time..i should not be that stubborn last time..or i will be better now..and lern more stuff than now a few hundred time..but i wont be sad a bout it..i will onli feel regret and laugh at my childishness..

but seriously...she is the reason i became like that..althought she never do anything(she dun even know i am that depress at time!!) she is still the main factor i am here to write this long post..i hope god will bless her and me..eventhough we got a hard time to show love toward each other(due to parental disagree) we still get to improve out realationship..so i know how strong our bond is ...no matter what..i am not going to break it .!!!i promise me..my beloved huey bing~~~

BLOG CLOSE

2006-03-13T17:33:00.000+08:00

WELL I KNEW I SAID THT I WILL BE BLOGGING ALL THE WHILE..BUT ANYHOW..I KNEW MY BLOG POST ALL VERY COLD..AND ADD ON I GOT A CERTAIN PROBLEM THAT THERE IS NO WAY I CANT CLOSE THE BLOG...WELL DUN WORRY, IT WILL BE BACK ..BUT IT NEED SOME TIME..DAYS??MONTH ??YEAR??WHO KNOW..REMEMBER THE DEVIL NEVER CRY!!!..I WILL BE BACK..

2006-03-12T08:36:00.000+08:00

tired

2006-03-05T15:21:00.000+08:00

yesterday is an exhausted day..hmm..let see..morning wake up at 10 30 ..what the heck!!!the kids behind my house quarrel with his sibling!!!what the hell..i cant sleep due to their awesome voice..so i guess i got no other choice..today promise yee shuang , clover and also sze ling to catch a movie in 1 u ..well before that took my car to the mechanic to fix..because my good dad drive the damn old car that belong someone grandafther to the very great genting land..end up the water boil and they have to waste a few hundred buck to repair..and who is the victim???zhien wei the great!! so have to beg my sis to drive his car..so take of 11 30 to USJ to fetch yee shuang and clover..then meet up with sze ling in 1 u at the cinema..i still think that GSC somehow better that TGV..hahha..it seem so empty in TGV..and pack of ppl in GSC..i think that having 2 cinema in one shopping complex is not a good idea after all..watch big momma 2 !!it is hell funny show..especially big momma running around with the swiiming suit on the beach..i laugh till i cry man oh my god!!u ppl got ta watch that!!!hahah..it seem like a pig i force to wear a swimsuit and chasing after someone for food..hahha..and the colour of her skin let me think of some one ..i cant remember *cough*zhencui* cough* her name..i wonder what happen when *cough*zhen cui*cough* turn into something like that...then after the movie..we saw jim..the hell of bagger got no expression on his face..just like old time..haih..then find out the beast is in 1u also..without hesitation we come to meet the beast..hahah..we drink and chat ..and also play some pool..when the beast gone home..then i ask clover wether they wan back home a not(they are not around because man talk/!!!they should not be there) ..they say they done with their shopping..and find out time is still early ..instead driving them home..we pay a visit to michelle..hmmm..she intro us some kinda enormous food in mamak store..roti tisu..it is not a roti tisu ..it is so big that it need two plate to put on...hahha..we had a hard time easting that..since we are so full..michelle appetite is so good that she forget to chew it..haih..retard kid!!!after everything is also late liow..phone no battery..parents cant contact..worry they worry bout me..so say bye to everyone ..fetch them home(feel like i am a drive) and fetch myself home..mom and dad not suprise at all..wonder they worry about me a not..haih..sad..expecting some worry words from them hahha..when to sleep after watching a hong kong tv drama..it is not a bad drama..intro to everyone after i get to know what the drame name liow..see ya ppl !!1

2006-02-26T01:35:00.000+08:00

wow..i am just back from concert..KU MOU FEI YONG!!!it is a blast !!well both of them are talented singer..well meeting them is such an honour..and their voice..i will nvr be like them for my whole life..i wonder how they have such a marvelous voice..maybe they are born to be like that..miriam as always like a childish girl..i like the scene when everyone call her to sing "mou lai"(a song from ronald cheng)..haha..i wonder what happen between both of them hehe..everything bout her is cool..look..sound..body shape and the right height..haih..i guess i will nvr get such a girl that is so damn hot!!..beside that ..leo is not bad..his voice is every single man dream to have..i dunno others ..but i really do..so i wont chock or break the glass and windows during karaoke..hhaha..140 ringgit to see two talented hong kong atress and singer is worth it..and also the stage..it is created very unique..even though it is simple..but they be able to build out the unique in them..well one thing i not satisfied is the PA system..i cant hear they sound clearly..maybe it is indoor..oh well for those who dont know the venue..the concert is at bukit jalil putra stadium..well the traffic is alright compare to other stadium..i really recommend anyone who want to have concert in malaysia please go to this stadium..because it is much more easier for me and others..haha..i went there with michelle , sok keng and fiona..meet up with ruey ying and patrick..Leo Ku said a phrase where i think quite interesting.."a concert purpose is not onli to look at ppl on stage..but it is a function to gather everyone important to join an event..the main character is not always ppl on the stage..but the night is for u "well my friend who went the concert with me..honestly not very close..but i imagine what it will be if it is her..well then i start to imagine thing that really break my mood in sudden..haih..important ppl is always the one that break my heart..why am being so unlucky..well forget bout that larh..

the day is not 100% fun after all..because i miss a fren birthday party..the beast of CHs once..haha..now continue his career in taylor as the "beast of taylor" hahah..well happy birthday to him..wish him good luck in everything he do..and may god bless in your happy relationship..and may our frenship last forever..i am sorry anyway cant be able to attend..i have to chose the concert..because it cost more than your haha..i poor marh..cant throw money to water just like that..haha..well thats all for now..picture currently in ruey ying there for the concert..i nvr take picture because it is not allowed..and the small ruey ying be able to sneak in his high tech slim camera that make me feel like stealing..haha..picture will be uploaded as fast as possible..but i onli got the photo of the stage..due to the spotlight to bright..we cant take the picture of the two main character..but as i say the stage is cool..so enjoy larh if u wan!!

2006-02-24T23:26:00.000+08:00

this 2 days really in a bad bad mood..what the hell gone to this world..i feel that i nvr been lucky in everything i do..i try to make thing happen..but what i get is rejected and all kinda lama excuse that fuck my whole mood for the whole day..why ppl cant acknowledge me by looking at what i have done for them..come on guys..i am not born to do something for u!!!apreciatte what i done for u before and dont keep fucking me like hell when i did not do a single matter that blown your mind..i am not a born maid kid that will do anything even throwing my life for all u ppl..please!!!dun ever use me ok..i am helping u with heart..dun ever try to use and make me like a fool..u will need to pay with interest i bet u!!!dun play with my feeling...i am a human with emotion..being played and used by u all these fuckers was not fun at all..dun tell me that u are trying to kidding with me..if u do..u dont know where the chibai limit is..as i said,dun think i will not feel anger..i dun feel anger because i know u never want to see it ok..dun force me!!!i got no chance to hesitate screwing u up..when anyone pass through my limit..and my limit is not as big as u see..u son of a bitch..i feel like killing all this jerks one and for all..my hand is itchy..itchy to kill and to whack anyone that is playing with feeling..i hate ppl with such attidude..i wont give any face ..even if he or she is same bloodline with me..trust me i am not a enemy u wanna make..and i can prove it, if u dun believe..beware ..

2006-02-22T22:27:00.000+08:00

well this is a picture of me and jacklyn and below is me and daniel hahah..

2006-02-22T22:23:00.000+08:00

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2006-02-22T22:09:00.000+08:00

dude..today dont know why..cant sleep well hahha..keep on having illusion every hour during midnight..so scary..maybe i got mentally problem..well wake up quite early because sleep lot yesterday..as usual ready to school..drive to school and meet up with same person ..clover and nurul..well clover kinda sad cause the registration paper been stolen..the club lost 7 ppl contact..wonder how to contact them for next meeting..haih..today jackln and daniel will visit our school for a photoshoot..hahah..for u all those who dunno..both of them are the winner for malaysian idol..well..i did mention on the previous post that i have been chosen to become the model and i will be taking picture with them!!!hahah..for those who crazy bout him or her..please dun kill me..i am shock either..well both of them are nice ppl..we(those model) were kinda stiff since THEY are the MALAYSIAN IDOl!!!..hahha..they try to make us comfortable with them..i am so annoyed when jackln say she is fat when her body shape show that she is as thin as rotan..well girls is always crazy bout body shape..haih..the photo shoot turn out well..the picture i will upload later in case u ppl wan to have a look..currently i took some personal picture with them..so enjoy!! then out college got a bunch of ppl from LUMIX company promoting their product(digital camera )and finding participant for photo editing..and they do survey..hahha..here is the funny part..they call me to do a survey..then i say ok..just help them out larh..since i got nothing better to do..3 hours of break haih..then they tell me to take a picture..i say ok also..but got condition..there is a lot of expression inside a box.i have to randomly choose one..i choose "cute Face"..then i have to make some cute expression for the photo..i try my best to do one..but after taken..i feel like it is more like a ghost expression..hahah..well they said they will call us at 3 if i win the prize..then i think that..how can i win with the stupid look...and guess what..while i having physic class..i got a call from them!!i win!!..so i rush down to collect my pprize..it is a VIDEO CAM ....CAse only hahha..i ask them"can i have the dumb photo back??" they said.."no we cant, we will upload it on the web"...i stunn!!!hahah..well the photo i will look for it and upload it here..to let u all have a laugh..haha..

that all ppl see ya around..

BUMMER~~

2006-02-20T21:56:00.000+08:00

well today is really shock..go to college and shock because Dziya wear the same attire with me..orange shirt and blur jeans..he look like my brother..too bad he is malay hahha..well do titration in chemistry class..kinda fun..it different with those we do in high school..we do everything more accurate..slightly mistake have to do all over again..after the chem class..out dance club recruitment drive is a success..lot of people join this club..well maybe the college is too down..that why they join for some entertainment to do..well get to know some fren..find out that the college is not bad after all..the student are frenly and never as bad as i think before..through this recruitment..get to know my classmate more better..we have fun and we work well together..they are the best team to work with..seldom quarrel lorh..haha that my favourite..the most shocking thing is when i am giving flyer..Janet(the student service council) come and ask me and Clover.."do u wan to be the model of this college?"..then i ask .."why me??" ...she said.."because u got the college look"...i am stunn!!! in high school i am used to being call as lala chai or samseng look if u dun understand..now college look???hey i promise i nvr do face surgery!!!hahaha...then me and Clover just agree with it..and the shocking thing ever..we get to take picture with Malaysia Idol contestant..coool!!!i hope to see jackly victor...hahaha..thats all for today..i got to sleep liow..

2006-02-19T21:11:00.000+08:00

well it been a long long long time since the day i blog..well i just going to resolve what happen this few months...at january nothing much happen..everyday gotta go work from morning to night in a computer shop..well it is not boring place to work..at least i learn some stuff bout the accesories for computer to broaden my knowledge..knew some fren and manage to learn something from them..well what i regret most is i nvr get to spend more time for myself..anywhere my fren when..i will always reply "gotta work,sorry for that"..and relationship with fren nowadays gotten worst and worst..maybe one day i should really do something bout it..college started..for those who dunnno where i am studying..i am in SEGi college...it just beside summit shopping mall..feel free to come look for me...well unbelieveable ..my class onli got 7 ppl currently..mostly of them going for march intake..what does it mean>??it mean i am going to be boring for few months..haih..knew some fren from melaka and some from kedah..it is very cool..i nvr been so close fren with indians and malays..not mean i am a racist guy..just that u know lahr..in catholic..dun really got the oppurtuniy..all chinese what!!!..however bout college study is always the most important..manage to keep up with it..hahah..but i dunno can stand how long when my endurance last..

after that is chinese new year..haih..nowadays new year nvr got any better..just going worst and worst..cannot feeel the environment at all..and the ang pau is smaller than last year...ish ish ish..but anyway it is still good nothing bad happen..since there is rumors that who born in the year of dragon will got bad luck..geezz scary...after that is zhen cui party..not bad larh..get to see old fren..chat and know how they going..so glad they doing fine..when yee ming plan to go clubbing..i am reallye excited bout it..i wonder what does it feel..hahah..thing nvr went well..when we reach just outside the door..the whole bunch dun feel like going in anymore...is this somekind of prank or anything..at first i was kinda angry..but well..i have to understand they are not interested in place like this..it is unreasonable if i force them to go in..just if there is the next time..please inform us that u dun feel like goin ok.!!!..after that is bing party..it is a bang ..feel so glad to see her..eventhough i just met her a few days ago..i wonder what she feel..haih..why is everyone said that i am drunk..i am no drunk at all..i can still count to infinity ahahha..come to think bout it..i am not even 30 percent drunk yet..i drink too little...

that goes for today update..i promise that i will update frequently..even though nobody gonna read it ...because the feeling of talking to my past is not a bad feeling after all..see ya

done

2005-12-31T12:43:00.000+08:00

well it been a long time since i wrote i something here..everything is over..school,test,prom,class trip,..everything..this year is the most exhausted and also the fun part of my life..because i learn to care appreciatte my fren..so they will not easily lose contact..starting from the test ..the SPM..it is indeed a tough challenge for the form 5..handling the pressure was not easy at all..lack of sleep..lose appetite..and almost got crazy in the same time..wow!!i finally got a chance to feel the people in tanjung rambutan..but on the 6th of december..when it finally end..the period of hell..hhaha..the feeling is hard to describe..i feel light and lose burden that was always on my shoulder..haha..i shud be relax..but i dunno why i met a car accident on that day after the test..weird..i think i am not used to the feeling of being relax suddenly after those pressure..hehhe

well after that our class the SF1 went to penang for our class trip..it is an awesome trip..led by zhao bing..it is cool..everyday we had fun and none of us feel no good..hahah except for some of them that i dont think i shud mention..why is it cool??dunno how to tell..i am happy to look at my fellow fren again..and classmate..i wish we were still 2 years back when we can met each other weekdays..but now it is hardly to see everyone again..so i apreciatte toking to them and having fun..but i end up drunk!!ish..must thanks zhao bing also..haha...

next is the prom..it is also a great party except for the cacated ballroom..but u done your best chin fei ..at least everyone is not feeling down and boring bout the prom..good job haha..well i tried to find myself a nice shirt that can make me look like a polite guy..but my sis insist to buy a shirt that make me like a hung hing tai lou..lucky i try my best to make myself look less like a triad master..hahha..and it went fine..i find a hard time going there..since 5 peoples in my car also dunno how to go...i was like thinking..how unlucky i am..well but we managa as well..but it is quite late liow..of coz larh..we went so many place..because sesat..hahha..many leng chai leng lui..never see them in such a look befor..coat ..tie..bow tie..gown..wow!!!cool...~~~everything went well..but one thing i dun understand..shud it be a formal event..but why the performers..make the particiapant like going to a clubbing centre..nvm larh..we still young..but just curious hahha..

haih..after such fun event it is time to worry about the future..the course and also the college..havent taken my decision to go which pathway..i hope it end well..because i dun have a chance to regret anyway..i think thats all for today...sorry for my bad english..i am still blur blur now..just woke up..
anyway today is 31st..tomorrow is another new day..new year..and new life ..i hope 2006 is better year..and 2005 will be a great memory..for everyone..

happy new year..!!!

things conitnue..

2005-11-19T13:00:00.000+08:00

yeah maybe i am not great..maybe i am not something that is good to become anyone predious..but i am a human too..i got a heart..with emotion..i can share anything ..i can give anything...i can sacrifice anything..but is it like i am the onli that doing stuff like that..am i really not worth to being care of..to being consider of..i dun understand..i am doing nothing wrong..but why thing go wrong on me..why they wanted to rush up those negative feeling on me..to hurt me ..make me look down on myself..feel myself so cheap ..like a rat walking on the street..no one mind dead or alive..why???what is the use of helping..understanding ..and also caring..i got nothing in return..well that is what school teacher teaching us..not to ask back something when u sacrifice to ppl..but all the while i am not asking i just hope ppl sto giving me hard feeling..stop giving those shit that ruin my mood..my emotion..my entire heart is aching..cause those great thing u been giving!!!what this all about!!!! am i really not worth being look up..if i am really not!!! then tell me who the shit is i..all the while i been hoping to receive the best from u..but is this how u treat me ????is this how u return my love ..my care???why??tell me...what the fuck!!!

graduation

2005-10-27T10:42:00.000+08:00

a few days ago..the chsian of 2005 finally retired or should i say graduate..it is a very touching event..firstly everyone is taking photo before the ceremony start..u can see the expression of missess toward their dearful fren..i heard some of them even cry..yeah it is something very sad about it..we have living together for 5 years in the same place..it just like we are a bunch of family because we spend most time in school haha..instead home..well but everything gonna reach till the end..everyone think positive bout it..hope for a better life and bright future to all my fellow fren..haha..back to the ceremony..i find it very strage..fren that i used to hate a lot..and teachers too..i feel that actually there isnt a big gap in between us..i just regret why cant i realized it haha..well too bad..i cant stand the feeling of regret..i will find way to contact them if i got a chance..thanks a lot to all of u ..for experience and teaching me this 5 years..my fren and teacher..and also my school...love u all

time flies

2005-10-15T13:26:00.000+08:00

time goes really fast..just a blink of eye we are in another place far from past..but problem never gonna fade in an inch..well quite impress because i had face it for a amazing seconds..what the emotion i gonna face the problem wiht??the answer is inmune..no feeling..no comment..no answer and wish for question..curiosity lost..every second from now trying to be a cheerful..be a laughing freak..be a clown to others is what i really wanted to have..for those who concern!dun worry because the big freak guy zhien wei is always the right guy to have fun with..not a single tear will be laid upon anything..as u can see..from the title for this blog..THE DEVIL NEVER CRY..haha..the devil onli laugh and shout..and he apreciatte anyone that is around for him..haha..

big crisis is coming ..SPM is the main goal for everyone in the form 5..the devil over here will curse everyone to got full A in this examination..haha..u got curse!!now u will get good result in all the test u got!!! evil me!!!~~~~

class trip and prom ..a special moment to remember the heaven of school and class ...it also a place for a demon like me to bring chaos to the occasion with rythem..as u can see my nick is also CHAOS RYTHEM..haha along with partner haha(u know who)..

anyway thats all for this warning to all fren about the curse and those chaos..i hope thing is going as plan ..see ya..~~~

piss of it!

2005-10-11T00:39:00.001+08:00

well it been very long since i blog..things even going so well..i mean i nvr expected it to be that way..i miscalculated..i used to be someone that calculate ..find solution to any problem i am into..but now..i give all of it through my feeling..i dunno why..i thought it will somehow make things better..this is what pupil tell me "dun calculate so much in some matter!!" but i guess that is me..or i should my life is this..without calculating i will be in deep trouble..i nvr believe in my instict or my feeling before..but now i give it a try..end up i am suffering here..when this thing continue..i am addicted toward it..no way i could stop toward feeling and calculate back..isnt it funny?? i am losing my rights nowadays..never able to do things i should do..and unable to voice out things i not agree with..i am feeling myself giving too much..and forgotten to ask back..i am not feeling really good..being a puppet in someone eye..being a joke to someone mouth..i am really piss of it!! but what can i do..i fallen to a deep underground where i cant reach for the lights..i did say before a phrase that no matter how deep u are in darkness..there is still light around the corner..YEAH i am searching it in every single corner..maybe it is not the right time..maybe it is in somewhere..i only afraid that it never existed..i am tired..unable to continue searching..only determination is not enough..my body and emotional is pulling me down..losing my focus..loosing my ability to do right and wrong..and i worry being broken down..piss of it and piss of it!

it been long

2005-09-01T11:01:00.000+08:00

well hello..it been long since the last time i update my blog..well a lot of things happen..happy and also sad..i dunno will it last long or not..but this is not the thing i should worry about..because i really cant do anything bout it..maybe god make the desiciion..oh well..let start with my burfday..i dunno it should be happy thing or not..getting kai bao by many sadist in our school..they even record the process..oh shit~~i havent even see it..hurt my hand~~ouch!!! well it is nothing lahr..i am kinda used to it..because dunno why i have been ppl target to kai bao..when i reach home..my sis bought me a cake!!! so sweet of her..hahah..and the whole family celebrate with me..home sweet home..!!!and after the cake..some member of the family feel hungry and..my dad said."oh well let have supper" hahha..then 2 cars gone to KL and have WESTERN food for supper..hahah..12 am somemore..it is a great day..well been receiving message from eevryone..even munyee from ausie!!!haha so lad she remmeber..

trial is coming ..i am kinda worry bout it..because i nvr even start to read anything bout it..i wonder what will happen in SPM..hope it will been different..geez prom is changing the venue..poor chin fei have to face those schoolmate alone..oh well some are fine..but some of them is just trying to make problem with him..hope he could handle well..and of coz i will give support to the donkey no matter what!!buddy marh..hahaha..ok larh i guess thats all i wan to say..wont be updating my blog for long...maybe after trial i guess~~~

2005-07-30T19:39:00.000+08:00

the ballroom in sunway ..they say it is somehting like that .hope it is

hey

2005-07-30T19:24:00.000+08:00

well another week has pass..and once again weekend haha..anyway lotsa thing happen too..in this few days..our class teacher been so mean to us..she change everyone place..and where is my new sit..the first row..what the hell..everyone pass by the class will be looking at me.every teacher will be asking question from me 1st..damn it i gonna pay for attention in class now..anyway i still wanna comment her..having family problem is nothing to do with us..we tolerate with u ..let see ronald..from last year till now..dun she realize once ronald take this thing toward the principal..she will be in dead shit..how immature is her..and also other teacher as well..pn lim..a teacher that dont like me at all..well it just because i nvr take chinese dun mean i am gonna make your whole family die rite..been teasing me and toking bad bout me all the time..pn tan as well..we dun know how to do doesnt mean we are dumb...even those clever worm in our class dun understand u ..so dun ever shout at us..go back and think properly wether your teaching got any problem b4 u spill any word toward us...pn ang and also pn lau..u both are the worst..pn ang nvr help us in anything..she just wan to finish what she have to teach..and pn lau is the same as she is..pn ang look down the gang behind us...i am so dissapointed with them..but they instead scold us..i guess when ppl get older they get dumber..and why are we sitting back here..and doing nothing..because we are pity of u old chicks!!!! grrrrr...

dad injuries had been better..feel so glad..but he still have to be careful..well i also been sleeping late recently..because my sis bought bunch of good show..like war of the war and also mr and mrs smith...i like UNLEASH the most..some of u might not htink it is nice..but i reall felt it is a cool show with meaningful storyline..and also good action fighting..jet li damn yeng!!! hahaha...

test is coming..i cant be doing nothing..guess have to study a bit a bit at least for a day hahah..ok larh that all

2005-07-25T18:35:00.000+08:00

purple camp..very simple hoh??but manage to get 2nd..so fake!!

2005-07-23T16:36:00.000+08:00

edit by my fren...advent children..cant wait..sepetember !!!

hihi

2005-07-23T16:14:00.000+08:00

well it been long from the last time i blog..thing never been better or gone worst..but thing go kinda unplan ..make everything so rush..so quick..it just happen that u dunno it is happening..when u finally realize it..it is already over..well let talk what happen this week..ummm..we took our campak injection on tuesday..kinda cool because get to see the expression of everyone..some scare..some worry..some enjoy..for me??no feeling..hehe..but end up..their expression is all the same..no feeling wan..except suk hui..well our class the tough wan!!! haha..well wednesday no good..dad is in an accident..2 am in the morning..when he wanted to have a supper with fren..he drive to the pudu restoran..sit down for not long and order a bowl of vegetarian mee..since it is the first of the month in chinese calender..out of no where..a lost control car boom in the restoran..and BANG..next scene dad end up on hospital..so relieve when see he is fine liow..thursday go to hospital and ponteng school..friday is kinda boring in school..especially they are michael and pn tan..add on pn chia..3 asshole dunno how to teach wan..still wanna act like they do..beh tahan them larh..after school went for AGM..well it is cancel..cause that idiot teacher ponteng sekolah haih..irresponsible freak..anyway the new pres got dumb..he is a fool..so obvious the gurl is playing and he wanna go up toward her..now he got hurt..seriously i wont pity guy like him..just because the gurl look beatiful and u lost all the control of yourself..like refuse to hear what your fren comment bout her..one word for him..dumb!!..well hope he take care..and u are a man ok!! dun show those sad emotion..and trying to make everyone pujuk..comeon you are 16 man!!! dun show face like kid anymore..get it!!! if it werent your fren..i iwll laugh till my head drop ..haha evil me..after that meeting..here come the beast oii..begging everyone to help him with his seni project..well i onli help him a little since i am a guy that no sense of art..(wonder how i get all the trophy during primary) haha..good news is those fellow taking arts manage to pass up ..congrat..went back home and check on dad..he better liow..feel better ..aih ho feeling do homework .just wanna revise all my subject..well..i think teacher should stop giving homework..instead teach and revise with us..because i personally think homework not helping at all ...accept akaun..heheh...ok larh got to have a nap oredi..then gonna continue with lotsa thing..bye bye

2005-07-10T17:21:00.000+08:00

the pruple house rocks 1st in CHS sport day

sport day

2005-07-10T17:04:00.000+08:00

well last friday..that is 2 days ago..the purple house member or i mean the all the house member stay overnight in school to build up the camp..i got lot of feeling haha..well happy because the enjoyment..exhausted because of decorating the camp..stress when we fail to do the mascot..and anger when someone try to find business with us..excited because get to know a lot of fren..relieve because it is finally over..who is the house that win keseluruhan!!we !!! the purple !! the mangosteen and also the 1st purple batch that win from the 1st year of sport day muhahah..feel so proud of it to be one of the batch member..anyway during that night..really a nightmare..haha..never even have the chance to sleep for a minute..well i also realize how evil people are..how stupid ppl are..and how pityful..well i also realize a few teachers that is very good to us..thanks MR Willian..i am so touch when u help us to buy stuft, staying overnight with us..and plan everything for us..haha..sorry to make u raise your temper..but i promise no next time..haha..well i personally think that the tent decorating is not fair..well especially toward yellow house..poor kah ee!! do everything by her ownself..and nvr get help from his fren..anyhow other house..i hope u realize what u did..change the bad..and continue the good in you..well our marching is disqualified..so kelian for mjin keat ..he really help to train the purple house and ponteng the band practise haih..well we win the whole thing..at least we get to feel better..this feeling is cool..never get to feel in b4..thanks everyone for this chance..hui jing..ying hui..yee wei..toh yuen..jie how..wen jie..and lot lot more..hahha..bey bye..

2005-07-02T14:55:00.000+08:00

the event that bring memory now..for the senior scout of 9th peejay...04/05..

retire

2005-07-02T14:43:00.000+08:00

finally..almost 5 years of enjoyment..we get to stop from being a scout..i really never realize until today that it been so long and honestly i really dont feel like stopping..i wan to go back to form instead and enjoy the scouting life..it is cool..when everyone so innocent..anyway i regret a lot of thing..i never success being good scout..what i know is play and play..now i realize how i love it so much..i even now feeling to be a king scout..haih!! regret now also no use..and also i feel so sorry for myself that i never did well last year..and never get the post i dream of..i shouldn put blame on those who nominate us..because my attidude got problem..well Cheah Chin Fei..when i become a scout master..i hope my change and commitment toward the 9th pj scout will be seen and i do hope to work with u..today is the AGM..miss everyone very much..eventhough i get to see them on monday..but the feeling is diff..hahah..well..i must face it anyway ...next week is the sport day..

cant believe all form 5 in charge of the tent..well i used to think our tent so easily made when i am from form 1 to 4 ..well now ..it is extremely hard haha...well i try my best to do it..and the following day will be the 6 hour lecture of scout master..it will also be my first activity in scout master..i hope i will be a brand new person..not the crazy senior scout..and once again bring 9th peejay scouter council..to another new level of grace..with the other scout master of coz..well actually never thought of being a master since chin fei dun really like..me ..but today he said he give me a chance..well if he is a king sscout..i guess he must somehow got the quality to scold me too..i am very sorry toward him ..and i will do my best..thanks ...9th peejay scout group rocks!!!

2005-06-26T13:23:00.000+08:00

the 9th peejay scouut 2005

telmatch

2005-06-26T13:06:00.001+08:00

wow..it is over..my worry and also my stress..well it still a failure anyway ..guys i am sorry i cant bring a perfect planning for all of u all..i just hope u can still enjoy the fun in this telematch..fellow scouts..thanks u all very much for helping me..i know that u all dun have a heart to do it..but when i insist u all still come and help me ...thank you all..!!! and also sorry for my temper and also inefficient..i hope u guys can forgive and still let me plan stuft with u all..haha just like campfire!! hehe...

the important ppl i wan to thanks also to her..she stay by my side and support what i did..i know i am not treating u very well..but i am impress when u still by my side..i swear that i will apreciatte u more than ever and more than last time..hope u forgive me ..i know u might not see this blog..but it is ok..i will prove it..so one day when u read my blog..u will know the reason ...love u.!

well kim party is a blast.!! she rox in every way..hhaha..(you know what i mean) well it should be a nice party..but my tiredness after the telematch influence my mood toward the party..well wish u the best in your birthday..

well the thing to do now is prepare for the scout master lecture..actually i have high hope for it..but i dun think it work well after i fuck a king scout in front of his boy..i dun think he will pass me..well forget bout it zw..scout master is not your way anymore..got to go now liow larh...thanks everyone ...and miss her..

haih..

2005-06-21T23:35:00.000+08:00

things been bad..no mood now..wanted to spread out..wanted to fly all the way..dun wanna be here..dun wanna stay as a puppet..i dunno what does it mean??am i doing wrong all the way..am i too immature..why thing alway gone worst worst and only worst came to me..i wonder i did anything wrong when i am trying to make things better and calming myself with others..and why when problems occurs..i am the one they seek..why am i the one they think is the problem..how can they be so sure in just a few minutes..while i do stuft is 100 times longer than it..am i stewpid???am i dumb??..i am not satisfied..why am i being look dowm..why is discrimination is so popular..and i am the fucker victim for it..ppl always say karma stuft..i wonder who am i and what i did..i am not satisfied once again..i never have any evil deed before but geting all the evil response..i hate it man ..u fuck!! do not think that just because u are much older than me..it means i have to respect u...remember!! i only i respect someone but at first he or she should respect me!!! what have u done!! come in and fuck me like nobody busines..and dont even let me sound my ideal and thinking..what gone to this world???consideraton..understanding..love...is this only those word using for essay and to fake somebody???then if it is so...why is hot temper..not understanding..and inconsideration work in reality..am i suppose to got those evil deed..in order to survive this condition..till now i nvr even thinking of revenge or anything..is this what and how u treat me !!!i saying to you GOD!!!prove to me i am wrong./!!!dont believe in you doesnt mean u can do bad things on me!!!!if u doing all those stuft all the way..you should take the name god out i suggest!!...

exam...

2005-06-15T19:47:00.000+08:00

well it been a while liow lorh..school reopen..eveything back to normal..i guess gua..well today finally receive almost all of my paper..some improve and some nvr improve..some drop..well my feeling also dunno should be happy or not..but i still feel ok because for those i hope to improve..greatly improve..this i think will motivate me to study..heheh..good job zw..well yesterday drew a picture to publish in the school magazine..this ideal is ying hui give wan..well nto i trying to show off my drawing skill..just wanna leave something on the magazine..well i also dunno why..when it comes drawing i will surely draw the picture of anime heheh..

telemtach coming up..seriously i am very worry..because havent gotten approve by some asshole..yeah she is..now onli realize how irresponsible our teacher will be..they dun give a damn bout us..promise to read the proposal..but nvr read..yeah!! i know u are busy..will u mind to read it in house..are u busy having midnight activity with your husband!!!well that is impossible..who wan u!!!if i am her husband..it will be the greatest regret of my life..you bitch!!!i will give u a last chance u asshole..

anyway time is running up..a lot of thing i can feel is coming..dun wan to think other stuff..that is not helping me wan..i wan to do what i can do now..haih..eventhough sacrifice something..well i can sacrifice everything now seriously..because there is no hope for such dream..thing proven that i must be treated such a way..oh well..then i have to accept it lorh..i am alright!!! i am cool...well lot ppl birthday is coming up ...like Pin Pin , Suk Hui and many others..wish u all happy birthday and take care!!!...

p/s...zhen cui i seen the picture liow..u look great!!!i am serious here..say u fat fat all is kidding onli larh..dun mind my words..anyway u should know that rrite!!! hahaha ,..being my daughter at least also got some quality wan...ehhehe...

see ya !!!

haih...

2005-06-06T20:50:00.000+08:00

wow..it finally a week liow..well thing going not bad larh..but arh..got some kind of sien..and then some kind of worried..some kind of scary..some kind of stunned..miz feeling all in one time also can.!!
haha..maybe tuition till gila gila liow..well watch a lot nice nowsadays..bought a few dvd ( not porn larh ok) like around the world in 80 days, one miss call , mission impossible and also x-men 2..very nice show indeed..and then i realize one thing..that all the movie i love to watch is either action or animation wan...hahah..i dun realize till my sis tell me...and also 1 thing ..i hate love story ..haha it kinds bored i think and i also thought it is not realistic at all and it wont happen in real world..hhaha...sorry of i offended anyone!!!

haih..spm coming damn scare lerh..maybe have to work hard liow..cannot like that..zw !! wake up from dream hahaha...ok larh ..come and crap here onli larh...
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fake

2005-06-05T14:01:00.000+08:00

yo today post title..F-A-K-E..hmph..very popular recently..what is the real meaning of being fake?..let us give u an example..A talk bad about B in front of C..and A talk bad about C in front B..haha..that means..A is faking..A is not standing for its own..but is faking really mean A is bad..actually there is a positive side and also negative of it..A maybe dun wanted to hurt the feeling of her/his both fren so he/she decide to fake in front of them..conclusion "he/she work with the situation"..this way she/he stand in the positive side...but if A is only trying to raise and increase the anger between B and C..he/she is in the negative side..

well sometimes we got no choice..we have to fake ourself to make sure thing go right..if u are in the negative side..of coz u are deserve to get scold by people..but for the others..dun scold ppl b4 u find out anything..he/she might be in the +ve side ok..the one faking might think about your feeling so he/she fake..get it!!!

arh..this luck for on me always..getting scold and misunderstood..well vic and zcui..u ppl are right..tomoro is a brand new day..i know..so i am okay..but i gotta do something bout it..i cant let myself being misunderstood..but i am wondering what could i do..being back to myself??let me tell u ..it wont work..really..ppl will call u to choose between 2 side..either go for B and C..u cant stay in both side..i dun like to stand in any side..i love to go along with anybody..so i am always in the middle of everything..hahha..being fake??i can be fakest ppl of all..but i nvr harm anyone..i do that just to obey the situation..

anyway ,others plz understand and dun be so selfish larh...take care u all somemore get scolding..use your brain!!!use your brain haha...as for zcui and vic..i am alright really..i am as happy as ever..the crazy and stewpid wei is always around muahhaha...

time for a good nap!!! see ya ...leave a tag will you!???